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03-04-2013, 07:46 AM (This post was last modified: 06-13-2013 06:12 PM by Spiral.)
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Spiral's BAMM Journal
I started listening last night.

Only got about 7 hours of listening in but all using headphones with an exception of the last hour. I will also be sure to get in a couple of hours in at work using head phones. Should be able to get an average of 9-10 hours ever night starting tomorrow night since I will get my computer fixed tomorrow.

Stage 1: 3/3/2013 - 4/3/2013
3/18/2013 <-- 16th day off

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03-06-2013, 07:22 PM
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I'm super excited for you Spiral!!!

1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
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03-07-2013, 03:49 AM
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Go Spiral! Big Grin
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03-07-2013, 06:27 AM
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Thanks guys!

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03-07-2013, 09:10 AM
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This is going be the journal that will span for several years until you become a full-fledged multi-millionaire, the time has finally come! Go Spiral! I'm envious! Big Grin

- If you let go a little, you will have a little peace. If you let go a lot, you will have a lot of peace. If you let go completely, you will know complete peace and freedom
- F.O.C.U.S = Follow.One.Course.Until.Success
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03-07-2013, 10:13 AM
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Spiral UP the golden stair Case.... More power to ya. MY version begins next thursday @ 1 am.Keith.
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03-07-2013, 10:13 AM (This post was last modified: 03-07-2013 10:14 AM by Spiral.)
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Yea Tiesto.. it's all settling in right now haha. I'm ready dude. And no need to be envious broham, in time we'll both be multi-millionaires. Smile

@ NcBear - Thanks! I look forward to following your journal

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03-07-2013, 02:01 PM
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Wishing you also huge success with this sub!! as said before Go Spiral!
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03-07-2013, 09:07 PM
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Oh shucks! I started listening to Stage 12 tonight accidentally. It only went unnoticed for 2 hours. Shannon, should I start stage 1 over tonight/tomorrow? or is it a big deal..

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03-07-2013, 09:36 PM
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(03-07-2013 09:07 PM)Spiral Wrote:  Oh shucks! I started listening to Stage 12 tonight accidentally. It only went unnoticed for 2 hours. Shannon, should I start stage 1 over tonight/tomorrow? or is it a big deal..

Just keep going with what you should be using.

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03-07-2013, 10:51 PM
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You got to stage 12 quickly! Tongue

This will be an awesome journal Wink

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03-08-2013, 05:20 AM (This post was last modified: 03-08-2013 08:00 PM by Spiral.)
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Haha.. It should be awesome.

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The first thing I notice is my expanding awareness, inner peace and zen. Patience is a virtue. Smile

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03-13-2013, 05:18 AM (This post was last modified: 03-13-2013 05:24 AM by Spiral.)
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It's been 9 days. I feel a huge shift happening right now. It seems like my life has been a huge shift up to this point. I also feel like this shift is happening faster than the changes in my reality. So it's all in my head right now but I'm at a point now where most people just aggravate me. I don't take their behavior personally but I have myself wondering why people do the things they do. I'm fed up with the negativity and I just want to tell people to quit their bitching. You're wasting your time. I conclude that 99% of people's minds have been poisoned (could be 90-95%...). Quit feeding off negativity. I still do it occasionally but I catch myself. I'm not perfect.. but this gives nobody a reason to make excuses.

I've been scattered brained but I've also been focused for just the right amount of time and multi tasking like a beast. I don't prefer to do things this way but this is how I've been.

I feel more relaxed today than I was say yesterday. Yesterday I couldn't get out of my head. I've been getting stressed easily but I've managed it with the right things coming up at the right times. I don't want to go into detail because what I've figured out is quite interesting and real. I know it to be true yet I'm still afraid of illusory things which contradict this realization. I'm not really worried about my future anymore.. but I still get caught up in being impatient and wanting things to happen a little faster. BAMM is exciting so far. It's kind of funny to even try to think what I'll be like in 1 year lol Smile

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03-17-2013, 06:26 PM
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Somewhat ticked off. Just started listening to BAMM tonight about an hour ago and opened up a game design document. Turns out half of the document is missing. I almost went crazy.. and sometimes it feels unnatural not too but I kept my composure. I actually started to blame the software.. ridiculous but it was my problem. My harddrive crashed a couple of weeks ago and my last backup was from January.. oh f*%$ it it doesn't matter.. just as well that this happened. Now I'll go back and do it again but make it better and more concise and complete.

I'm burned out and deathly sick of my own complaining.

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03-19-2013, 04:17 PM (This post was last modified: 03-19-2013 04:29 PM by Spiral.)
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So, I'm becoming more annoyed with the type of work I do. It means nothing to me and it creates nothing positive for the masses. It doesn't advocate change. I've been shifting over to giving back first before giving to myself for the last year or so. It's been a continuous road to travel and I'll keep traveling it and switching my mindset until it's natural for me to want to and actually inspire and create positive change for the world. So you can see why I wouldn't be happy with making a television show.

I'm focused on freedom for myself too. I don't care about material stuff. But, I need money to eat... have a roof over my head and travel which I think I'd like to do for a while.

I'm at a point where I don't like talking much because it doesn't accomplish anything unless it's discussing an idea. I still have bad habits though.. very bad habits that I'm consciously working on. I have so much crap I need to clear out and I'm working on being patient... so I'm trying to enjoy the process.

I have trouble doing the work I don't want to do (ie. work that means nothing to me) but I freakin' enjoy the hell out of busting my ass doing work that will benefit me and others in the future. Screw all that hubub about challenges. Stick one in front of my face and I'll conquer it. That really only includes sitting behind a computer, animating, researching and/or brainstorming. Anything having to do with my social life is sort of out the window and I am having trouble pushing through the invisible wall holding me back in that area. But since BAMM focuses on making money and not so much social life I'm ok with it.. but not really. I just don't want to keep talking because it doesn't matter.

Anyways.. I do see the light at the end of the tunnel.. but it's not bright enough nor does that mean anything right now. gotta do what I gotta do no matter what now.. with patience gratitude and confidence

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03-20-2013, 05:06 AM
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Just found out a good baseball player I like is having trouble with nerves in his elbow like I had.

It hits home with me and I know I could help him. It's unfortunate to think that I may never be able to. Left a comment on the article on mlb.com but not sure what other routes I need to take.

It's silly to think I can actually get a hold of him but maybe..

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03-22-2013, 04:37 AM (This post was last modified: 03-22-2013 04:39 AM by Spiral.)
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Stage 1 hasn't been very subtle so far. I have alot of fears that I must deal with. I've discovered the main one but I have yet to move past it through experience. I've been doing alot of self awareness work lately and I'm getting a little impatient. I got so caught up in asking the question and thinking about it too much I forgot that maybe I should just calm down and do something else for a few days. So that's what I'm going to do right now.

The most interesting thing so far that I've had the ability to do is trace back certain events and see how they connected up to the most recent event of that time. Sometimes all it takes is 5 minutes to an hour.. sometimes it takes a couple of days. This hasn't really been the case the last few days since I've been anxious about finding the right answers to my questions. Like I said, I'm going to take a break from that. I'm going to focus on reviewing the tutorials on programming I have as well as read this new book I got.

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03-23-2013, 04:38 PM
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Alot of fear is coming up about procrastination and success. I forget sometimes about the bigger picture unfortunately. But only for a moment.

Stage 1 is bringing up alot of fears about my ability to do things to the best of my ability. I know I'm not doing things to the best of my ability.. and I'm accepting that and taking it for what it is. I feel like procrastinating all the time... but I don't because I KNOW that doesn't do anything. I suck it up and it's not so hard to do now.. and I do the responsible thing. I don't feel guilty about feeling lazy or feeling bad emotions because I know now I can just let them go instantly. I wonder what Stage 2 has in store. I have about 2 weeks left.

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03-24-2013, 10:39 AM
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Hey Ryu...ahh I mean Spiral Smile
Doing the responsible thing is the sxxt.
The world teaches us responsibility is towards others expectations,
it sounds like you responsibility is towards your own aspirations.

1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
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03-24-2013, 11:07 AM (This post was last modified: 03-24-2013 11:08 AM by Spiral.)
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Yea. I look back at the last post and it said " I know I'm not doing things to the best of my ability.. and I'm accepting that and taking it for what it is."

It's difficult right now because I'm alway so critical of my self and my own work. I try to let go of the perfectionist mentality and just go with my creative flow. Sometimes I get impatient for new ideas as well since I sort of let them just come to me. Planning out a script and storyboard though takes some thinking. I get annoyed when I have to sit down and think a good bit for 30 minutes to an hour because it brings me back to my K-12 days. I hated school lol. But.. as I continue with BAMM I'll be enjoying myself more. That's what usually happens with using subliminals Smile. I do work even though it may seem stressful at the time but I feel so damn good that I'm actually doing work pushing to get things done.

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