12-18-2012, 05:50 PM
I feel like lately the universe is throwing my constant curve balls that are smacking me right in the gut. First a major kid problem, then a catastrophe in my surrounding area, then another major kid issue, then a tragedy that I can’t even begin to comprehend and then today, not 1 but 2 kids major major problems. I am seriously struggling. I know there’s never a good time for me to quit smoking, but this is the pits!
One of the things I believe the sub wants me to address is taking on my kids sand the worlds problems. I am a very empathetic person and the problem I have is that I like that about myself but in the same sense I absorb too much of everyone else’s pain and suffering.
For instance, last night I raised the volume from 50% to 100%, to possibly stir things up some as far as the smoking goes (I’m a little bored with the program itself) and also because I want to make sure I’m getting the most out of this run through because I’m not doing it again. Well, all that seemed to happen was that I kept waking up and every time I did, I was dreaming of the CT tragedy over and over. So I don’t think raising the volume did anything productive for me, and I’m gonna try 75% tonight.
I also know that I have to lose the need for control. I know I have it and for the most part can even guess why. But I have no idea how to leave it behind. People always says that kind of stuff, just let it go, but never tell how to do that. Maybe the sub will just work on those issues for me.
It’s been a very very heavy hearted month!
Shannon, do you have any suggestions as to what you think I should use after this program? Something on the lighter and fluffy side? Or would you suggest adding the motivation sub to the gratitude sub?
One of the things I believe the sub wants me to address is taking on my kids sand the worlds problems. I am a very empathetic person and the problem I have is that I like that about myself but in the same sense I absorb too much of everyone else’s pain and suffering.
For instance, last night I raised the volume from 50% to 100%, to possibly stir things up some as far as the smoking goes (I’m a little bored with the program itself) and also because I want to make sure I’m getting the most out of this run through because I’m not doing it again. Well, all that seemed to happen was that I kept waking up and every time I did, I was dreaming of the CT tragedy over and over. So I don’t think raising the volume did anything productive for me, and I’m gonna try 75% tonight.
I also know that I have to lose the need for control. I know I have it and for the most part can even guess why. But I have no idea how to leave it behind. People always says that kind of stuff, just let it go, but never tell how to do that. Maybe the sub will just work on those issues for me.
It’s been a very very heavy hearted month!
Shannon, do you have any suggestions as to what you think I should use after this program? Something on the lighter and fluffy side? Or would you suggest adding the motivation sub to the gratitude sub?
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