10-17-2012, 05:41 AM
I was a little disappointed last night. I’ve been feeling somewhat better, the cravings are going away some and my anxiety hasn’t been quite as bad. But yesterday afternoon, I was exhausted and laid down for a while. I used the headphones, which I haven’t for a little while, and when I woke up I had a horrible migraine even though the program was playing at a low volume. I also had that bug sensation on my head and face. I feel like this anxiety and/or fear is just laying dormant waiting to pounce at any moment. Maybe using the headphones is just to powerful for me right now, so I don’t think I’ll be doing that for now. I know it doesn’t work like this, but I wish our subconscious had some kind of meter so we’d know when we’re getting close. I had been feeling like I was just about to the top of the hill but now I’m not so sure. But it is what it is and I’m where I am, so I’ll just keep trudging along.
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