03-29-2023, 01:33 AM
March 29, 2023
2nd listening day
I am slightly fearful this morning, which tells me that E5 is challenging some fears I've held on to. Though I really am unsure what it's digging into, I've gently but repeatedly been made aware how I've been stuck in my grief. I think of old recovery stories I've read where a person seemed to be making bad decisions for themselves constantly, but fast forward to some tipping point, and even though he/she had kept revolving around a single incident or belief in their past, something finally gave.
That's been me. I've circled, circled, circled around the SAME issues repeatedly. I'm still holding on to them.
This circling the same issue goes hand in hand with my living in fantasy worlds constantly, meaning avoiding reality. It's been a steady move forward with E5, and some major grieving release will come. I sense fears holding tight to it, but it's been doing that forever.
Grief isn't fun. Nor enjoyable. It's the loss of all those things held on to.
I'm stopping here. I'm trying to control this with my understanding. It never works, and it leaves me frustrated. I'm out
2nd listening day
I am slightly fearful this morning, which tells me that E5 is challenging some fears I've held on to. Though I really am unsure what it's digging into, I've gently but repeatedly been made aware how I've been stuck in my grief. I think of old recovery stories I've read where a person seemed to be making bad decisions for themselves constantly, but fast forward to some tipping point, and even though he/she had kept revolving around a single incident or belief in their past, something finally gave.
That's been me. I've circled, circled, circled around the SAME issues repeatedly. I'm still holding on to them.
This circling the same issue goes hand in hand with my living in fantasy worlds constantly, meaning avoiding reality. It's been a steady move forward with E5, and some major grieving release will come. I sense fears holding tight to it, but it's been doing that forever.
Grief isn't fun. Nor enjoyable. It's the loss of all those things held on to.
I'm stopping here. I'm trying to control this with my understanding. It never works, and it leaves me frustrated. I'm out
I want to be FREE!
