01-30-2023, 02:20 AM
Jan. 30, 2023
Cycle 1, Day 1
It worked like I planned this morning. And E5 is definitely working since I felt afraid to acknowledge my feelings to myself. I woke up, habitually seeking some fantasy world (meaning no emotional pain).....and that wasn't working for me. I hung in bed just a little longer, finally bowing to coffee, my main chemical distraction.
I'm kind of glad E5's working. Sitting in pain that's not budging is a slow torture. (Still feeling it, using words to hint at present pain)
Heading in to work early as well. Got a text I'm needed to run a route. Seriously, I'm losing that security of hiding any second I want to. And maybe, just maybe, that's good.
Cycle 1, Day 1
It worked like I planned this morning. And E5 is definitely working since I felt afraid to acknowledge my feelings to myself. I woke up, habitually seeking some fantasy world (meaning no emotional pain).....and that wasn't working for me. I hung in bed just a little longer, finally bowing to coffee, my main chemical distraction.
I'm kind of glad E5's working. Sitting in pain that's not budging is a slow torture. (Still feeling it, using words to hint at present pain)
Heading in to work early as well. Got a text I'm needed to run a route. Seriously, I'm losing that security of hiding any second I want to. And maybe, just maybe, that's good.
I want to be FREE!
