05-26-2017, 09:05 PM
Man I'm so sick of fear. I've been trying to change my thinking and be more positive lately. But I find a lot of the time it's a futile effort because it feels like it doesn't even stick. And it's stressful trying to be positive, especially when I try to counteract some negative thought and I get hit even harder with a negative feeling.
These past two days I've had this feeling in my stomach like I'm going to throw up. It makes me feel like I want to curl up into a ball and do nothing. Fighting it just drains my energy and does nothing to actually minimize the feeling. At the same time I find it really really difficult not to get sucked into it. I know the best advice is to set it and forget it with the sub. But when stuff like this happens it throws off my whole life. It's like I'm outgrowing old habits and beliefs, but at the same time I'm still not quite there with the new ones, so outwardly my life is stuck in this stagnant state and it feels like i have nowhere to go.
These past two days I've had this feeling in my stomach like I'm going to throw up. It makes me feel like I want to curl up into a ball and do nothing. Fighting it just drains my energy and does nothing to actually minimize the feeling. At the same time I find it really really difficult not to get sucked into it. I know the best advice is to set it and forget it with the sub. But when stuff like this happens it throws off my whole life. It's like I'm outgrowing old habits and beliefs, but at the same time I'm still not quite there with the new ones, so outwardly my life is stuck in this stagnant state and it feels like i have nowhere to go.