I have made some improvements, i don't like to admit it but i fear my father who knows why, kind of never try to get him on the bad side eventhough i also show him my bad side (i don't know if it's something like male fighting another male) i just fear to get to that point but don't hesitate to fight back. A few days ago almost got to that point because of contrary points of view, he's the type to try to impose his ideals on others and i get mad when someone try to do that to me so almost got into a fight but the anger didn't left me that day, then the next day i had a bad headache (i know is because of anger) and start questioning me why i get so mad, maybe because i want to live being true to myself or because living by someone else rules proved to be nasty but since i had to obey as a child then i had no other choise so now i'm shifting that control of my life to me even more than before, the child no longer has to obey someone else nor care about others trying to have control over me.
Lately i'm focusing on improve my self image to match the best version of myself, no more distracting myself with thinking of external situations or people, i need to convince myself of my greatness.
Lately i'm focusing on improve my self image to match the best version of myself, no more distracting myself with thinking of external situations or people, i need to convince myself of my greatness.