DMSi 3.2 sexland

[Kol]

Thank you Shannon.

Today I felt pretty good, bodylanguage laid back and an older woman, who came in ( which had sex appeal ) threw sneaky glances. She eventually ended up right before me and started to seduce me, all with a smile on her face. My name, where I came from, interest showing, all with a sexual undertone. Damn.

When looking at women who I consider at times average. They look more beautiful. Like given way to rail them too.

With M, she told me she is autistic. Yet nothing that cannot end up being seduced. Its like DMSI is hitting her in her core. No hesitation when touching hands and all, she enjoyed it.

The looks are more subtle. Body to body more. One blond was trying to get my attention. The other girl in a daze while standing against me with her body. I felt really comfortable. At ease and composed. The guy before me was highly apologetic thus engaging him lightly. Tje composure and ease when feeling the girl against me is significant. Like comfortable having women in my space and being approachable.

Im already having insights going on. As I write this, confidence skyrockets. Like bliss and arousal in very strong ease.

Tbh, this morning after finishing my loop, the same anxiety reared its head. It was manifesting in my mind like a leviathan/roaring dragon. When its that obvious, its ready to be faced. It mostly was felt in my stomach area, like some sort of sea like situation.

Other older women are playing with me flirt wise. Eye contact is mostly reveived with positve return. Also, it can be really drilling without me breaking off and just fazing deep. It makes them go haywire like shock send through their brain.

At times I want to bang all in sight like a prowling tiger.

Lots of talk about sex in my direct environment.

Lots is happening now under the hood. Small realisations, knacks and sensing it to be cleaned.

Its like a final standing now. Continue running B. Tomorrow is day 14. Friday day off in running this sub.

Subtle seducing and not so subtle seducing.

I notice now I quitted coffee that im noticable more tired. Yet my head is glowing. Im horny, sexual aroused now. Im constantly being seduced. I want dat ass.

[Kol]

Im starting to want to break of from my friends again. Like, I want to quit everything in a good way and becoming fully self made. Im highly confident in manifesting everything I want. Its like, im seeking the freedom to becoming maximum sexual irresistable. the former life is waning and waning more. iIm also disregarding everything and am going straight for the kill online.

Kinda tired at the moment, but am approached by atleast 5 women, I didnt feel the aura but recalling the events, I am feeling it now.

Attraction is attraction, mass attraction now.

Im having thoughts popping up about women from my past and women to come. women to come is way more stronger right now. Its all met with an "surely seduced" mindset.

My cheeks are hot

5 women that engaged me, I know them all pretty much, they went out of their way to come and meet me. financials I am cutting more short now. food is more healthy. cleaning my home is up.

Had a chat with an guy today, lets call him John. we did connect instantly and I was directly comfortable to share one and another, and the vibe was relaxed as fuck. as I write this now, I feel like a damn celebrity, think Jaret leto pre beard.

Also, I had a strong realisation last night that I value brains. It came through thinking about seduction and the shutdown of the mind. I expect my women to have some brains. also, im directing to dtf girls and there are shittons of women dtf. I totally disregard any bs they throw up at me, and go straight for the core of women, the sexual energy of women.

Tomorrow I will not run a loop. Saturday will be my first loop after the 15th day break.

[Kol]

Day 2 1 loop cycle 2

Last few days have been kind of eventfull. The desire to be more self made and hooking up grows. Im breaking out of patterns that dont help me progress to the goal of the program. I like to socialize and having things fall into place.

Im growing in keeping my home more ready.

I notice the effect of having the chemical altering my mind and im scrapping it whole. Masturbation, caffeine, other chemical stuff. Im going straight edge. In fact this makes me feel more desired. Being totally sober off those things shows a deep contrast. When clean from nicotine, caffeine and all of that, the aura flows richly, im on point and uninhibited. When not Im feeling more down.

The aura is mostly present and always around. Like the warmth when you look in a heat spot and feel it oozing.

When close with "N" my hands warm up. She looks more beautiful for some reason yet pedestals are kicked out and I shift to an strong IDGAF like women lose all beauty instantly, specialty gone, an nature taking over. Such as with V.

Yesterday celeb effect was on. I was outgoing and flowing. Women waving everywhere, kids mesmerized in groups. People taking note. Yesterday evening I went out with some people. One older women started talking my ears off. Grabbing me, face against mine, almost like violent sex with clothes on in public.

I dislike it when people point suddenly shit out like they suddenly discovered water. One of the guys went all "you always attract milfs blabla *giving uncollicised advice* like it was something alien. Fuck him ffs. Anyways, she was with some business group. Place was packed. But she almost ate me alive. She later realized that I didnt belong to her company. I tought she was drunk due her barrage of energy and bodylanguage, grabbing me. I notice that I tought that I could pull the mom of those sons few meters apart from us lol. It stands out.

Then we went outside for a bit. Group of guys, easy to talk with. Another guy came with his blond girl and she directly positioned herself in my space, like slightly in a daze and could see her blue eyes deeply. It was subconsciously that I felt strong magnetism. She was blond, red lipstick, pretty cute. I had some drinks ( not alcohol ) but did had a cig which, noticably caused derail. Dont want to give to much power to external factors.

Anyway. When sober, 90% of people give strong IOIs and Im on point. When having a smoke, it seems lesser.

Lots of hairflips, make outs in my direct vicinity. Wonder if the aura make people around me horny.

Im already more and more put off by cigs and am going straight edge.

Internal confidence rises. My bodylanguage and walk increase. The chubby girl of the gasstation is eating my presence up. When engaging with "N", "M" is highly demanding my attention. Something I notice is dividing my attention somewhat. Oh the struggle.

So...im having now my finances more tight. Im clearing up my place. Im cutting out chemicals. Im diconnrcting from my mind, which makes me very present and unstoppable.

Things to work at but feels not enough.

This week Ill be pure DMSI driven.

Lets do it.

Stay golden.

[Kol]

Day 6 cycle 2 1 loop

Rage in the cage. Against all social conditioning, I hook up and seduce no matter if it is in town right here or wherever it is. Im angry as heck and it directs at everything probably. Im recognizing im having still negative outlooks from the start with people yet am very comfortable today, perhaps most unfazed as I have ever been.

The anger is directed towards all the bs of people, the agreements that aint being met, and it pisses me right off. Im having 0 bs policy and am unafraid to voice this out even if this results in total war.

Fuck em all. Agression, pissed offness, short fuell and fedded upness. The whole lets talk stuff im over done with. The whole underestimating and being kept little, im done with. Im ready to burn their whole psyche to fucking ashes without sparing them.

The aura is firing and the agression, hatred and rage fuells and tunnels through my body. Anger is high and strong now.

Some days back I had a revisting of my childood upbring. My dad raised me to not react to people putting you into place, or attempting to. Total miscommunication of IDGAF attitude. It translated into not reacting or else...yeah so far the boundaries right? Now im setting the boundaries and its met with anger. Kick the alpha of the group on its kness. Kick the motherfucker if need so. Show no mercy.

Edit; Im in the 4th day of not smoking so that might also play a role. Caffeine is also been ditched for some days now. Both very close after eachother.

I feel im growing rapidly, like a bullet gaining speed.

I feel im getting brutally honest with myself.

[Kol]

Im having jelousy coming up, I knew this all along, but its something that needs to be adressed by DMSI. In some senses I feel regressing, yet at the same time, when coming out of this its getting golden.

Older woman, A, was all over me today, hanging around my neck, tits against me, it happens. With M, she is more sucking my presence up. With N, she seemd to be more distant in a way, yet engaging. Its onfusing and I dont know why. neediness/ IDK, my internal world feels being shredded apart now. Yet, she added me on Insta, and I feel DMSI somehow lining me up for her to respond, its undeniable. Weird ass behaviour is noticed by myself to myself. Like, avoidance behaviourand stuff.

To come back to myself, I feel like something massive is going on under the hood. Im having a slight headache. I connect easily with people, yet having some worries coming up.

The comments by women, about heat is reported multiple times "its hot in here" while Im not feeling a thing. Sexual talk is more and more popping up with people. Even N was somewhat stripping herself while being teased. I want her.

Edit: I also had a dream. Cant recall but it involved a girl who was very rebellious. Something was about it. My subc is busy.

Also: seeing glimpses of women worshipping me in a way yet its so so natural. As I work through stuff this result sets my body aflame. Im seeing so many cues now and parts. Lawd. Its total indifference yet also drive to merciless get it and execute. No excuses. Im plowing through. Damn bro. The indifference and feeling it in my dick. Sexual energy. Like women throwing themselves at me is fully natural and even common to where im heading and going.

[Kol]

The aggressive attitude shimmers forth till the point the last time I met up with friends it was noticable. Im even restless at this point. Its like all the bs that was tolerated is now surfacing and dealt with. Its 0 bs policy and tolerance akin to not shooting holes in the ship, but blowing the whole thing up in a nuclear sea of fire.

When some friends came over, my attitude went more and more moody. They even asked if it was something they did that caused it. The moodiness and agression also translates in fearless confrontational attitude. Like, with "D", I called him out without any remorse. My hints were clear.

Its not a constant attitude off "fuck the world, dont you dare to walk in my way lest you want to get fucked", but theyre are episodes with pauses in between. Im also having increase of doubt which adds to the mess.

This might come from a place of knowing that I have experience in the field of the mind, the esoteric, occult, law of attraction and affirmations and such. I guess im still having validation seeking behaviour. Its pretty radical. The need to be right. Yeah...why. there is a whole story going on behind it tbh.
Part also comes with the territory, the whole ignorance of these people that are gping to tell how shit works and what not while being totally unaware that beliefs shape their reality, thus dragging other people into that shit. So far for my 1l00% responsibility taking. In a wsmay im invested in that shit and its now painfully coming to the surface.

Yes, there is a strong black and white thinking without compromis right now. Be with me, add value and be usefull asset, or get out of my way and stfu.

Its not all doom and gloom. When im out in public, which is really my thing, im very chill. I notice that my desire to approach is low. At times, this makes me feel weird. Like, the obvious that has been stated by Shannon, about "man must hunt" programming. Im very confident in public yet still want to approach to some degree. Being freespirited so to say. Also, my walk is swagger and money. Im looking to improve my style even further. My walk in really noticable, being the king and prize. Im even growing somewhat interested in exclusive like clothing which I thought to be pretty ugly before.

Right now im wanting to sleep. I want to get over with the whole shitstorm goin on currently like many things are magnified through my attention.

DMSI delivers tho, no matter what. As things resolve and click into place, my laycounts about to skyrocket. There aint downsides to this whole DMSI run.

[dissonance]

What's "exclusive like clothing"?

[Kol]

Think Gucci, Versace high end line.

such as;

[Kol]

Im so dominant im shutting women down. My eye contact is almosy death stare level. Confident and bodylanguage is intensely powerfull. Agression is up. Manipulation is directly rolled off from me. The e.c was so intense women feel treatened. Atleast, 2 of them. Idgaf. Good riddance.

Im setting the tone. Im abundantly. Im cutting out crap and calling out crap and what not. Im like a rock unmovable. I am enough.

I want to shittalk and trashtalk.

Ive quitted weed, caffeine, nicotine. Its making me blazing.

Yesterday when getting some food, this latine shorter woman had this spark in her eyes. Strong perfume that sticked with me which in turn triggeted primal f#ck impulses afterwards. She did the whole catwalk show off thing. Great ass. Great sexuality. I saw her as an literally walking reproduction biology. Total objective as far as objectivity goes. Observant rock solid.

I can walk up to 10s without hesitation as Im slightly above 10. Craaaaazy.

Everything is skyrocketing. Money, business, wealth. Found the key and am relentless growing. Relentless in taking life by its tail. No chill.

After each resistance wave im coming out so much more stronger. Like inevitable being executing. Women sucking up to me

[Blacksheep]

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[Kol]

3.2 blows everything out of the water and I feel the sub agressively pushing. Im finding similar developments in chaosvrgn's journal back then. The agression, push, the wanting to pick up mma like sports. Things are dealth with agressively. 3.2 feels noticably stronger then 3.1 and actually challenging me in radical ways.

[Kol]

Ate lots of food for dinner. Not much later tiredness kicked in and knocked me almost out. Now im burning up.

[Kol]

Im having a strong headache along with lack of focus. Its like the sub it causing my mind to go on tilt. 2 days ago when I had something similar it was akin to having your conscious mind being nuked. Im having strong tension inward and vision like. 2 days ago my IDGAF skyrocketed because of it along with insance bodylanguage similar to conor mcgregor aswell as his attitude when being very dominant and confrontational.

Today im pretty moody. Lots of intolerance to shit. I want the playing nice to be over and righteously claim my position as king of the jungle. Its posdible and easy. Done it before, do it again. Like being present.

Im growing very fond of gucci, it seems to make sense as it is almost complimenting my whole demeanor nowadays. Nothing wrong with wanting status like this. I like great clothes. Im focussed inwards on myself now at the moment. Flowing goes easy socialwise and am autopiloting in making friends left and right. 3.2 is extremely potent. The times I let truly go and autopilot kicks in, it all calibrates.

Maximizing out the alpha bodylanguage then. I couldnt even read. I walked 2 days ago with this blur vision bordering knock out. Yet I remained able to walk.

Bad food makes my body shutdown. My troat shuts down and am repulsed by it.

I feel the aura shimmering aswell. Random firing up. My eyes are captivating. N got increasingly wiggly. When eyes meet it is on and she gravitates to me. I kept locking on her clothes covered pussy. She seemed not to mind it.

Banter is up aswell.

My whole mind and body is tens.

Tomorrow is my day off loop wise.

[Kol]

Cycle 3 day 1 DMSI B

Had yoga today. Talked with one girl beforehand who had a bf. The guy started to mate guard while she initiated.

In class there was meditation beforehand. 3rd eye guidance which, I tried to avoid a bit after some time in. I felt I was starting to step out of my body. High amount of visions, reality traveling/soul traveling stuff. Intense sexual vibe and thoughts, at times wondering it was to much to bear.
While further in, I noticed how autopilot starting to cause me to flow through the motions and positions. When women bend, my mind became flooded as I could look right through the stretchers and see the lines of pussies. Lol.

When the sexual energy flooded, several women looked my way, starstrucked, stoned into trance.

Afterward flirted a bit with G, while mellowed out.

Then went to get some weight training in. Noticed one girl, pretty cute with some green tints in her haircut following me, observing me, positioning herself so she could watch. Chatted her a bit up afterwards while bantering with "G" and drinking some protein shake. I was teasing, push pulls and the sorts. She responded well to it. Little asian vixen.

The green haired girl looked kinda young but she had this sex appeal. We threw eyes towards eachother

Got other looks aswell from women.

I notice I have some annoyance poppin up with socializing now. I dont want to do anything with people while a minute ago I took this girl aside a bit.

"Sets order with guy"
Guy walks away
Noticed that this girl was hooveting around and took notice
She pops up
Me: the guy was suppoaed to help me, but now you are here, so I figure you can help me *lotsa subcommunication*
She * beames huge smile and autopilot takes over from there*
I only can remember her smile now, shes cute tho.
She fumbled over her words, messed up receit and all of that.
Tssk tssk wink wink.

Anyway, there was thus slight disrespectfull feeling goin on. Like, being mocked on a subtle level by guys. I have the last few days an *dont like male friends* thing going on, like riding solo, fucking women and such. Even tho I had many of the people with me in this venue. The slight "funny remarks" felt insulting, as one of those guys up there, a server, did mess up last order couple days ago and he wasnt serious at all. Like supplicating yet taking the piss.

Ah well.

This morning I alsi had fleeing thoughts of wanting to look at porn for a bit. Dont care now.

Slight headache at the moment. Key is to cinnect with agression more in my case. Im also having experiences of minding my damn business and yet people opening me.

My drive is growing aswell.

Oh and the guy has now put an extra order with mine. I really dont get it anymore mayne