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RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Spiral - 01-31-2012
Yea man. I know how you feel dude.. I'm getting over my lost and emptiness feeling and feeling some motivation churning in my blood. More so around my career and showing people that I'm worth a damn when it comes to designing and editing. The women is a strong focus too BUT I can't let them distract me from my purpose which is What I've lost now.. so I need to relax.. maybe watch some more lord of the rings and get through this rough patch. Plus Rainbow... we are all Shannon's experiment. He may have said that we should all see this and that by the end of the set but each of us can only do so much with the situations that we put ourselves into. Shannon makes mistakes like all of us.. maybe in a few years He'll have something built that can turn the most wimpiest virgin into a super masculine ladies man machine within 6 months. But things take time ..as well as energy. I'm having trouble enjoying my day at work so hopefully yours is good to you.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 01-31-2012
Well put..its easy to lose site of purpose on these sets..I would say for SM but I experienced it even stronger on Alpha..aside from spurts of ridiculous success with woman I was actually more succesful with woman on a consistent basis before any of these sets..its like the part of me that could really relate as myself has been lost...on the other hand I'm so indifferent now that I don't care..and the glimspes I get of the new potential keep me going. I'm begining to wonder that perhaps what we all contributed that we think works with woman does not REALLy caus the profound change or results were looking for..of course it can have some powerful results but not perhaps in the way we were looking for. In either case Shannons doing his best to desighn what we wanted and ur right no matter how proven the technice is we are all gunie pigs and it seems the sets will only get better and better. What I ve noticed from SM users who have had the most success, and the times I have had the most success, is when the user already has situations set up where woman are coming into their lives, Ryan with online dating and Cortezwith his faires. So on one hand the set really amps up prowess with incoming woman but lacks firepower in going from zero to hero. Resistance aside I could moan about what feels lacking from the set for days but I am suspending all judgement until the end and am actually feeling really good today.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Cortez - 01-31-2012
My fairies, lmao. I just wandered in to the right mystical woodlands at the right time. That's very true, Rainbow. The people with the most success set up their lives so they have tons of available options and I do. I try to keep my social network very healthy and make new friends all the time. Ryan likewise sets up tons of dates online. The more women you have around you, the easier it is for SM to do it's thing. Find some activity that has tons of women around you. It's well worth it.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 01-31-2012
Just to be clear I was by no means pinning your success on fortune..I have no doubt you are heavily and deliberaty responsible for you mystical rewards
My life is not set up as fully as I would like but I do try. The most successful people do set up their lives with many options and that is the lesson I am learning now..not to just cold approach or meet woman randomly but network as well.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-01-2012
well today I was feeling much better, some negativity but its more distance now.
I realize moving out was huge step in releasing many emotional issues and the next step is getting a new job as being in the job I have now is upsetting me.
Today something amazing happened that I blew in the dumbest way.
I was waiting for the train and this woman walks right near me and just waits facing me.
She is literally my dream girl come to life, 12 out of 10 Dark, exotic, voluptuous, amazing natural energy, I feel my heart open and get turned on at the same time. I walk away to throw some garbage out and when I walk back facing her we make eye contact and I feel like we are looking into each other's souls. She is facing my side with her hips 4 feet away just looking all adorable and present. My heart literally starts beating like I just finished a race and I just have to speak to her, she is clearing asking for it. So I turn and say something about how patiently she is waiting and we get into a talk, I am super on and she feels healing and refreshing and exciting and sexual to speak to all at the same time. We get on the same train together and sit right next to each other and the whole time my brother is reading a book next to me. He taps me on the shoulder and says our stop is coming up and I ask her out just boldly, she wants to and we are quickly trying to figure out how to keep in contact, since surprise my shitty phone is dead again, she pulls out her phone and my brother gets off the train and I don't know what to do so I just palm her shoulder and I say "maybe well meet again" and get off..the moment I get off my brother starts screaming at me for following him and not staying on the train. Anyway I have experienced hot connections and met girls on the train before but never like this, it was like we were destined for each other, I feel like I walked away from my soul mate..and the sudden sadness and shock on her face when I rushed off felt terrible. I have never been so moved by somebody from meet to leave and I felt it more than strongly reciprocated. She is from morocco and studying at a school I got the name of...I don't remember her name because when we shook hands and she said it she was giving me make out eyes and holding my hand really tightly and sexually..but I'm going to try to find her again or put up one of those craiglists miss encounter adds. I don't feel negative about the situation just an extreme drive to come together with her again..its the weirdest thing..I have never really thought twice or regretted walking away from a girl before but its killing me that I didn't just stay on the train. Its like whether through the SM, my intention, or some higher power, or a combination of all, I was handed on a silver platter everything I have been craving and I ran away because I never thought to just stay and miss my stop...ARRHG. Hopefully we'll meet again and if not I am grateful and more shall come..and I will never walk away from something like that again lol..it was pure self sabatoge surprise attack
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Shannon - 02-01-2012
Fortunately for you, there's a way to pull her into your life and meet her again.
I have used it before, too. It's the same technique that the attraction subs are based on. You just need a little bit different wording. And because I am not making customs this year, I'll tell you how to do it.Create a recording of yourself saying the following sentence:
It is my will to now use all of my abilities to manifest into my life the best possible ________ (romantic, sexual, I suggest romantic) relationship with the _________ (describe her as specifically as possible) girl I met on the train on _________. (Date)
Then simply create a 30 minute track of this statement and record it to a CD.
Next play this on loop mode at a sane volume until she returns... all night, every night.
Enjoy.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-01-2012
(02-01-2012, 02:17 AM)Shannon Wrote: Fortunately for you, there's a way to pull her into your life and meet her again.
Create a recording of yourself saying the following sentence:
It is my will to now use all of my abilities to manifest into my life the best possible ________ (romantic, sexual, I suggest romantic) relationship with the _________ (describe her as specifically as possible) girl I met on the train on _________. (Date)
Then simply create a 30 minute track of this statement and record it to a CD.
Next play this on loop mode at a sane volume until she returns... all night, every night.
Enjoy.
Thanks Shannon
But as much as I would love to see her again I don't think I am going to drop SM to do this. I am confident we will meet again and if I still feel the same way in 3 months and we have not I might give that technique ago. I feel like something in sex magnet drew her to me and perhaps it will draw her again.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-05-2012
I took Friday night off from subs and did 9 hours of stage 3
Saturday and start stage 4 after this post.
Things have coalesced very nicely. Except for ridiculous sudden sexual tension which can also bring some anxiety I am feeling, and interacting, extremely smoothly and powerfully with woman and my life. I saw a girl, I slept with before, today while riding the train, we had kind of just drifted our own ways but I texted her since I never actually got to say hi again
me: Hey I think I saw u on the L a little bit ago, we got of on the same stop
her: haha oh really? why didn't you say hi?
me: I tried to but u were far ahead and I lost u in the crowd...I tried stalking u further
but to no avail lol. I really wanted to say hi though
her: what r u up to tonight
?I wonder if running into all the woman I have slept with in a city of 8 million people is part of the SM manifestation
Anyway here is my summation of stage 3 divided into, pros, cons, and resistance
resistance:
1.Hopelessness relating to woman
2.lack of motivation
3. depression
4. intense anxiety
5. wanting to run away from woman and being extremely needy for them, at times emotionally, at times sexually, at the same time.
6. Self doubt, questioning the set etc.
7. Struggling with very subtle shame over my own sexuality and inentions
Pros
1. Living life much more for my own self and caring less and less about anything else and what others think
2. More and more in the moment, letting go of thinking and just living in flow
3. Feel much sexier and chill Alpha
4. I seem to have a huge presence, everyone is always checking me out or blatantly staring
5. Eye seduction is becoming very seamless and enjoyable, I am having these amazing moments of sexual, and almost spiritual connection with sexy woman all the time. This caused alot of resistance initially
6. Woman seem to fill up with their own feminine juju around me and very obviously becoming extremely turned on. (I was discussing business with a female friend, whose mostly lesbian but experimentally sexual, she starts doing this really weird and overt sexual way of taking to me. And I just asked her if she was trying to seduce me and she said: "I know you said you don't want to be physical with me but I am just so turned on talking to you, I want to grab you or grind on you can I give you a lap dance?")
7. Woman hover around me
8. When I see a woman I am very drawn to I find myself moving towards them and getting in her proximity. I am also approaching, like direct cold approach, more but I am consciously focusing on that so I don't know how much of that is the set.
9. I feel way less needy and emotional in general
10. My body language at times becomes amazing, fluid, animal-istic, some swag. But it comes and go naturally so IDK.
11. Playful flirting is getting stronger-
12. I get extremely turned on very easily by woman and feel a lot more sexual confidence and control. Not as much sexual confidence as I would like but definitely an improvement. I am also more shameless but not as shameless as I would like. I sometimes get self conscious about who is watching, even strangers, as well or slip into more of a persona at times.
Cons
1. The only con I can think of is that I am not naturally staying around when woman I want clearly want me/I am not following through
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-06-2012
Loving my first day of stage 4
got exhausted by the end of it after 2 hours at the gym and had a mini mental funk.
but oh boy I can tell its going up from here.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-20-2012
almost two weeks into stage 4
I am more motivated in other areas of my life
and much more stoic than I have ever been and can no longer get angry lol
I am obsessed with woman or things relating to getting better with woman
and very little else seems to matter to me right now besides spirituality, life philosophy, writing
and making money-all as distance seconds to woman. I am approaching several times a day-either just for fun,to get more comfortable doing it or because I want to meet the girl-
I have been approached at an NYC bar by a girl I went to college with who knew me but I didn't know her-she asked to exchange numbers and meet up-I told her to text me-she has not yet so I might just text her.
except for some exceptions like the girl above I am at a sticking point-where the younger woman I like seem very attracted but the transition to sexual is not organic.
I am still holding myself back at times from a sense of stifled-ness/bs social ethics. The set seems to make things easier on one hand and more difficult in ways that were not there before for me, resistance maybe, maybe a shift in how I relate. Seeing people go home with girls at the end of night for me, especially people I know or girls I like-drive me fxxx crazy-WAY more than on Alpha or really more so than before in my life. I get over it quickly but it starts this negative feedback loop-where I start questioning myself-whats wrong with me-why can't I do this-I see love everywhere but here etc lol.
I don't mind being alone-but I am in a location and situations that some others who have done the set did not have, being in NYC with millions of sexy single woman and going out alot, meaning more opportunity for manifestation to present itself and for me to take action-and still not much...I know I shouldn't sweat results and I REALLY don't for long periods of time but then this negativity comes up-sure I get plenty of attraction but I don't give a xxxx about validation so that really doesn't mean anything-learning how to turn that attraction into a sexual fun relationship does...and I am making progress but nothing spectacular as of late..things just fall through-maybe my whole view on this is messed up ..I am totally open to suggestions-I'm tired of being a try hard but I also want to give this everything I have got.
I don't always feel physically sexually but I am in a perpetual state of wanting to meet woman and interact with woman while at the same time being indifferent to the interaction-its kind of cool and kind of frustration lol.
I want to get to the point where all of this is easy,where more often then not I can go home with the woman I want to and I can have a fun dating life, and I don't have to be drunk lol, which unfortunetly is really when I become unstoppable lol.
I'm going out every night for the last 5 days and intend to do so for another 25-55 days-sober for most of them, except one day a week, and approaching at least 5 girls a night. Porn is gone from my life at this point and has been for a while which is a plus.
This set is really cutting directly to my core and causing me to question my sexual worthiness/desirability which is quite painful-even though I rarely take anything personally anymore-when I do-it gets bad lol. I'm laughing because I find these feelings and thoughts hysterical logically I know none of this matters buts its occurring within me.
That said here are my results for stage 4 so far
1. Willingness to approach up at least 75%.
2. Speak my mind on anything, with anyone, anywhere-
3. Get hovered around by sexy woman alot-and get stared at alot-by everyone
4. Staying in a neutral to good emotional state much more stably
5. Get into 'state' /flow zone fairly easily
6 Older woman want to fxxx me really badly-I do not reciprocate their feelings for the most part
7. I can make people, especially woman, laugh as a natural expression of myself so well its kind of scary
8. I feel like any sense of ego, fixation to identity/I am good/bad, I have is very objectified, at negative times, or subdued (this is kind of strange and perhaps not that healthy with woman)
9. Just smoother in everything I do and body language
10. And the weirdest effect-when I am around certain woman my body literally starts shaking with sexual energy, especially in the legs and groin and often its like I feel my dxxxk being pulled towards them by tension and force-even if my mind is not involved at all haha-this could be just me lol..but it happens at times and kind of freaks me out.
My biggest concern with what is going on right now is that despite my stable mood any sense of real ease and happiness feels intimately connected to success with woman in some sort/getting laid. Going to the gym and meditation helps alot but it something that I am caring about more and more-not in a needy for the most part- in a very proactive way it seems as if my negative emotions about what I want not happening is giving me no choice but to move foward-a kind of leverage-in alpha it was the anger at situations pushing me to move out of them-now its like my choice is to feel negative and inadequate or keeping putting myself out there/moving towards sex with attractive woman. I doubt this is part of the set-I'm hoping its deep issues being resolve via resistance.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - Spiral - 02-20-2012
Rainbow I understand what you are going through with the jealousy and all man. It was rough during stage 4 5 and 6. But if it's pushing you to improve your ladyman skills great! Best thing to do is to just let it all go and become a modern day monk
I havn't been around alot of my good friends thought lately when they have success but when I visited them last year I had a few friends that would hook up with girls right in front of me.. and it bothered me alittle bit but surprisingly not so much. By now those feelings of envy and jealousy are absent. None of that matters anymore man. It will click for you soon.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-20-2012
I hope when it clicks I don't become a monk
I hook up in front of my friends, they in front of me
..should be no biggie..if any negativity about it is forging me into more of a ladies men, then I'm happy about it.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-21-2012
Got a real sense of the possibilities of the set today-or maybe it was just my perfect mood
but when I went out I just found myself engaged with gorgeous woman after gorgeous woman, the vibe was totally natural and highly sexual and fun and they were pushing the interaction as much as I was leading.
I made out with one woman and we exchanged information before she left-then I was joking with her friend and another (fat) friend gets jealous or something and starts saying 'ok you already made out with one of my friends stop trying to make out with the other' I just ignored her but it made things end on a bit of a bad note for possibly seeing the one I hooked up with again.
When I was waiting outside this supermodel looking asian with large breast, turns from her group looks at me-we hold eye contact-and she smiles and comes up to me saying 'oh my god, how have you been..its been so long blah blah' and starts hugging me and looking super deeply into my eyes and putting her face near me like she wanted to make out-which I should have done
..she didn't seem drunk really but I had def. never seen her before in my life lol. I played along but was so shocked I didn't really know how to handle it-was not sure it was her 'clever' way of moving from her group and trying to pick me up or if she genuinely thought I was someone else-I did not ask lol..just rolled with it..she asked if I would come with her to the next spot and I declined-since I was at my friends birthday party-I said we should stay in touch and she said I already had her information and went off with her group- lol wtf-I sensed she was a nympho perhaps on the prowl lolThe rest of the night I was on fire-and on my subway ride home at 4 in the morning this super cute woman starts talking to me while I am waiting on the bench, she asks about the train and then we get into a flirty conversation that lead to me giving her my number. The biggest difference today was that I took almost over a 15 hour break from listening to the set and didn't listen to much to it the nigh before-it just needs to settle.
So I actually got approached as directly as I've ever known woman to do-3 times tonight, 4 including a girl who asked me if I had a light and then tried to stay around.
RE: AbyssRockstarXXX - RainbowAbyss - 02-21-2012
repeating this here for Shannon
@ Shannon-you mentioned conscious alignment with the goals can facilitate the process-are those the goals in the instruction manual as described per general theme of each stage? If so would conscious confirmation of them or re-reading help align the conscious and sub-conscious?-if not whatto mention it with fresh reference for your mind. are those goals one could consciously confirm for sex magnet, alpha male. The kind of goals that would be consciously audible in a xl-17 format. I'll ask again in my journal so as not to hijack the thread but the connection was made here so I wanted