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AM6 Run 2 - djl4 - 02-02-2017
Second run, last one was two years ago, and I wasn't totally satisfied and put the subliminals aside for a while.
Memories of the pleasant effects and changes came back into my mind and I decided I'll give AM another try.
Been listening irregularly for a few weeks, but starting today I am listening full time (leaving it playing in both rooms of my house).
Already noticing some minor changes. Less thoughts about girls, sex. Stronger body language. Feel more comfortable/dominant/equal with other males. Focus on getting organized/journaling/scheduling increasing. Focus on self-care (groceries, laundry, cleaning, grooming) increasing. Joining new groups (martial arts, tai chi, etc.). Leadership feels natural, organizing meetings for a self improvement group I'm a part of. Focus on making money, increasing income, finding new jobs increasing. Risk taking significantly easier. Socially more comfortable, saying hi to people on the street, etc. Feeling less sexual though, although I know that comes back in later stages. Been meditating a lot.
These changes could be the result of other things as well, changes I've made in my life. Less drinking/drugs/porn, therapy, etc. -- But I know for a fact a good portion of it is from the program working.
RE: AM6 Run 2 - djl4 - 03-01-2017
almost done with stage 1
- Spending more time alone
- Connecting better with others
- Less affected by bullshit
- Strong Energy of positivity and leadership
- 28 Days of NoFap, and sober from weed and alcohol
- Taking my future, vision, career, very seriously, and some opportunities starting to open up, things seeming less bleak and more like I'm being supported by invisible forces
- Reading more again
- Waking up early
- Feeling like success is inevitable
- Feeling stronger in my own values and less sucked into other peoples
- Taking care of myself better, cooking, cleaning, etc
- Meditating at least 2 hours a day
- Women feel like less of a big deal (most of the time - when I'm around some ones I'm very attracted to I can still get needy)
- Women seem into me when I'm out and about, walking around or doing errands. Some women that I already knew are becoming more direct with me
I wanted to add weaknesses to this post, because the above does sound extraordinarily positive
-Still have shame, sexual shame, and shame of having kind of wasted the last few years. I went through some hard stuff and things are starting to get clear again.
-Often I'll want to talk to girls that are giving me the eyes, but I clam up
-People seem to have really strong reactions to me. Either smiles and a sort of magnetic pull, or angry glances, fear. etc. I'm not Alpha in the "tough guy" way, and I don't intend to be, but I have a strong energy that seems to get strong reactions either way. Aiming to make this more wholly positive.
-Socially even though I'm more comfortable being out and about, I still have trouble connecting to people I feel are different than me. I usually connect most by humor, but I'm not good at really making people I don't know well feel safe to express themselves. I'd like to improve this and be able to make people feel comfortable, show more genuine interest, etc. I've always kept a distance and want to come out of that.
This is the culmination of a lot of things, but I think the program has been a big part of this. Looking forward to stage 2