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RE: Am 6.0 first run - wolverine_i_am - 04-18-2016
Yeah, I'm the same now. When I first started out in my first few months, I was always mass approaching - basically in hunting mode - cause I believed more approaches meant more results. I later realised that if you're constantly on the look out, your vibes will be messed up. Back then I'd approach 20-30 girls and get only a couple of flaky numbers in the end. It wasn't efficient.
Now, I've learnt to tone it down a little. I rarely do more than 5 anymore. If I see one I really like, then I'd go for it. I'm basically just chilling and having fun and don't have the need to always be on the look out. I get way more return than before. It's a constant evolution that people will realise over time the longer they have been in game. The newbies still don't get it cause they are still mass approaching and get low return.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-18-2016
(04-18-2016, 02:02 AM)wolverine_i_am Wrote: Yeah, I'm the same now. When I first started out in my first few months, I was always mass approaching - basically in hunting mode - cause I believed more approaches meant more results. I later realised that if you're constantly on the look out, your vibes will be messed up. Back then I'd approach 20-30 girls and get only a couple of flaky numbers in the end. It wasn't efficient.
Now, I've learnt to tone it down a little. I rarely do more than 5 anymore. If I see one I really like, then I'd go for it. I'm basically just chilling and having fun and don't have the need to always be on the look out. I get way more return than before. It's a constant evolution that people will realise over time the longer they have been in game. The newbies still don't get it cause they are still mass approaching and get low return.
I growing towards that aswell, its an skill developing and being polished over time.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-18-2016
painfull to acknowledge I still have some jelousy in my system. Chatting yesterday caused all kind of feelings to be stirred up, it was weird, reverting back to my beta ways of the past, it was obvious and understand why I fucked up in the past. Its the opposite of trust and abundance, rather fear. Im now seeing how this will be destructive to begin with and displays low value. Toial mindfuck. In the end i became playfull again, but those shitttests and mixed up signals shows that girls dont make sense.
My mindset is slowly shifting currently, like i actually feel it. Some slight pressure, glimpses, back up and assurance of the sub dominating my brain. yep, be an challenge, dont give to much of an shit about her. rather flow. it will all sort out. if she gives drama shes not compatible, there will be more fitting girls out there.
"make me some dinner"
"hold my purse"
wtf. fuck off. you have hands and legs yourself.
Going to deep on them and taking it serious lead to be getting burned. Its just an event and not something to be figured out. DGAF.
Girls pretty much test you to try to override the frame and degrade you to an orbiter. Not going to put up with it. Other people are also srewed in their beliefs and beta programmming and how it is love for them, like being the woman's slave, nice guy shit. Actually standing up now. being the prize, not needing and being outcome independent, like an high value car. The contrast is big.
It shows low value to agree with it, like, changing yourself for an girl, putting her on an pedestal, becoming needy. It kills off attraction.
stand your ground, dont put up with, be somehwat cruel, yet not out of an reactionairy response, rather an IDGAF state. let it be an challenge and let them qualify. An unmoving rock.
Not going to give it to much thought, just getting over with it. Not worth sticking sround with it and just let it go, not getting to me at all. Not a big deal.
Again had an shitload of dreams but somewhat realize half I dream when it happens but dont remember them. Its still somewhat close to my awareness. Lots is happening, clearly something is worked at, which will iimprove me even further.
Lately AM seem to cause me to feel like an pimp.
Going to hit the gym, has to become an hibit in the morning but this habit never went away really. It just starts of where I left basically. And Im starting to become more dry and toned. Awesome.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-18-2016
My thoughtsx are driving me crazy, selftalk might actually conflict with the script.
My eyes look really intense like an extra seductive quality.
my attraction and confidence skyrockets, im feeling pretty much alpha at the moment
I seem to also have stage 3 lead in starting now. Lots of stuff coming up
Keep thinking people show lots of interest in me aswell, like attraction is an given just as what is said in john alexanders book "assuming attraction"but this goes way deeper.
Also Im more centred back in myself, not going to compare with others. Am really tired. an attitude and seeking the challenge.
Also I dance on random moments. reviewing current stuff and surpassing it like my current dressing and what not. Im confused and ecstatic.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - wolverine_i_am - 04-19-2016
(04-18-2016, 11:59 PM)Kol Wrote: I seem to also have stage 3 lead in starting now. Lots of stuff coming up
Some say it's stage 3, others say it's stage 4, so I'm confused lol.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-19-2016
In the end its an 6 stage, so it doesnt really matter I guess. I was rather hinting at stage 2 lead in to stage 3. More agression and strong as I progress through this stage. I could be wrong tho, which is fine.
people including kids give the deer in the headlight looks now.
from what i read from your journal ( yes i read it ) it seems girls are more receptive to you aswell, so there might be some lead in that stage.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - wolverine_i_am - 04-19-2016
Ohhh my bad. Thought you were talking about SM3.
You reckon? I haven't noticed too much difference from stage 2 and 3 in terms of more attention from girls. But from no sub to stage 1, yes huge noticeable difference!
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-19-2016
yeah I do.
Im aware of some more neediness now. To much investment turns her off. being indifferent and just causal hook up without anyhthing attached and not biting directly. It keeps the attraction flowing and not caring to much about girls. Also whole strategies as to how approach this seems meaningless and irrelevant.
Showing to much interest kills off attraction and disrupts flow. getting over with it. Dont put her on the pedestal. Hopefully stage 3 kills it off more and restores attitude. Really had some doubts going on because of last experiences while its nothing more then an event and experience. I still give to much of an shit which comes across as thirsty. Fuck.
Just doing my own thing.
My brain seems to light up right now and im growing more and more outcome independent yet notice some slight resistance.
Im feeling more attractive. last few days im feeling like growing more intense, like getting more in peoples face and present. Its an bit like stage 1 with the whole thought jumbling at the end, might be an integrationn kind of thing.
Much is happening now.
Stage 7 thoughts makes me realize how complete and rounded the 6 stage sub is and how its all about me and my self development. Allignment. Like thinking as the stage 7 referesher as some rounded complete stage while im still at stage 2 currently. Stage 3 is coming soon.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-20-2016
The lady and the counter at the gym was overtly interested and kept asking questions and seeking more to know from me. i notice i write this with non emotional, just indifference.
Also, external validation I realize such as good an bad feelings, i understand attraction now, it can be Obvious and covert. The dark haired girl at the grocery store eye fucked me, kept talking, couldnt even come in between, she kept going lol. She felt kinda nervous i suppose, but lighted up pretty much. Also, when paying for groceries its not an issue to come back to certain girls, its like causal.
people eye fuck me when Im semi locking eye contact, i can make eye contact with different status people, such as business man and what not. had lip bites and shock reactions.
Went over the place after the gym with my eyes.
pretty sure my aura is coming out now. I notice it myself, im having an pretty strong presence. Now, im feeling more sexual. Also had some nice moment with my highschool crush again. I can pretty much eye fuck now. but being more in control and present. having all kinds of attraction ideas going through my head now,. redeucing and bringing women an step back, like lowering them approach goes smooth. Its an mindshift. Like being the alpha and stuff instead of going like "shes hot, now what"its no big deal. unphased.
people come and go. if theyre drawn in my world, fine. if not, fine. Some limits are lifted up, such as the number closing stuff, its being in the moment breaking through.
Im getting more selective and increase in value. like, its more difficult to get me. lowering standards makes me nauseous. Has to be the sub, like, girls qualifying or try to qualify and what not. And im like selecting almost. Its not even an big interst any more and somehow this seems to increase my attraction. I can only improve further from this. the sub unfolding itself.
My anger comes back aswell. yet frankly IDGAF. Improving in all life areas including women. The attraction feels insane currently.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-20-2016
women become all clumsy around me. had another girl with pretty big eye liner giving me the smile and submissive body language, had an impulse to go back and tell her shes cute and get her number. one side says yes, the other side of me was meh, not interested, no my type.
Leading is something happening. Also, socially even furtherly fluid but also more cruel like an "dont fuck with me"attitude and glaring, almost bordering on hate. Not defensive but an more commanding know your place kind of presence and state. I undrstand in an way why women would pick this up aswell.
the guy working next to me just pissed me off. keep giving me looks and he just pissed me off and annoyed me, like having no tolerance for him. Just by being next to me I already became more cruel.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Illumi - 04-20-2016
Hey man! Could you compare your confidence while in ASC to your current confidence?
Maybe you remember an approach while on ASC, how different is it from your current approaches?
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-20-2016
Yeah in some ways its similar yet not. About the approaches, yeah kinda, the just go for it and openness is something familiar. other then that, IDK. ASC caused an sort of dream vibe for me, disconnected maybe, while AM feels more agressive and more full/bold
AM has caused an massive overal change.
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-20-2016
Tired and depressed currently and socially just withdrawn. It'll pass eventually.
Through tackling pmo, I will direct teh energy into business. Im setting goals as if it is current time, like "I make 40k "so there will be allignment. Also going to tackle all addictions that will not benefit me. Sigma shock has an chapter about it and i indentify pretty much with sigma.
Also, the fear of the 9-5 ratrace is bend to an fire to run independent myself eventually. Its about the process, the money is not the goal, and Im going beyond ideas. its an lifestyle. The clock is ticking, time is precious, AM re-direct my focus towards my gaols and this buiness. Scarcity never felt so motivating. To be honest, it feels like my purpose in this, an let me slip into flow state. i can write pretty much lots about it and inspires me highly, when writing its as all adds at it. Each realisation is again moved beyond, expanding my vision.
Money is just one area, to let it come together, and to build is something i'm realizing. Its right in front of me mostly. Money will flow when realizing ideas and putting it into marketing, its an total mindshift.
Clinging repels and interupts flow state. Facing probably some resistance and it makes me feel all sad and emotional for reasons unknown to me. getting angry aswell, emotional wobbly.
letting the sub do its work.
Also I wonder how far my subconscious is felt by others, sensed. had some 8,5/10 behind me hairplaying while driving to the gym, each time i looked in the mirror to look behind me.
getting physical more dry. My veins begin to pop out
RE: Am 6.0 first run - Kol - 04-21-2016
Had an discussion with some women about porn and that i quit watching it. Im currently feel the AM changes again. Its more forcefull and occupying my head. When you do nofap and discuss it with them, its easy to steer it towards escalation and put in some keywords. They threw it up "all guys watch porn"and "if an guy says they dont watch it, they lie" Its so easy to play on this and to create feelings in other people. i also call out on what I notice like on peoples character and what I observe basically. Its being on an whole different level. More skillfull and mature.
Another guy did understand it and wrote some piece about it yet i wasnt fully agreeing on it, he came from an other, more pessimistic angle instead of going deep on the brain effects stuff. Im speaking up way more easy, its like stepping up and telling as it is. No more excuses, no more guilt. Attraction and being NGAF when attraction happens amplifies it. if an girl want to have angry seks its not an "being used`or feling compelled to do so. I went with it and didnt thought much more about it. An more healthy approach in it. Mind you, this was all playfull chat stuff.
Creating my own happiness and self validation more and more. I can happy with myself.
Gratitude and enjoying life, although I have moments that all feels just shallow and meaningless, empty. gratitude in the sense that i take nothign for granted, it opens an whole different new world of appreciation and easy flow.
Started with green tea extract aswell to get more dry physically.
Business coming together, close to breakthrough, not going to wait.
Also women love to challenge frame.
setting up my 5 life areas and working out mission further, im sort of aware as to what and hows, its an core thing
Im short fused, when being offended and stepped on, i cant keep it in or I go mental and my mind goes all crazy until I speak out and still the anger will be present. Like, no mercy.
Feeling more violent aswell physically. Like I want to punch some shit up