(09-21-2010, 09:43 AM)ronatello Wrote: More of a feeling of not attaching any outcome to something is manifesting nowadays. I used to get annoyed if, like for example, if I waved at someone and they not wave back but nowadays, I wave and I really don't care if they wave back or not. I just think, "their loss, not mine" which is the attitude to have and I wish I had that attitude when I was growing up (note to myself: build time travel device and travel back to my high school days and give myself the subs burned on CD's of course... mp3 didn't exist back then, LOL).
Attaching an outcome to something is VERY self sabotaging.
I'm noticing that I'm doing braver things and saying stuff that I used to not say. A good example of this was when I was at Hoots last night and I was talking to my waitress and I brought up the subject of getting my back waxed (!). Normally I would keep crazy stuff like that to myself but hey, I have nothing to lose and I really don't give a flying f*ck what they think about that so I told them anyway. And one asks why I did it (umm, why do girls or anyone get waxed? To remove unwanted hair, DUH!). Her eyes got so big like she couldn't believe she was hearing this! lol
Then another girl came over to talk about it (girl 1 told girl 2 about me) and then she comes over and wants to check it out. Then she asks if a guy or a girl did it, how much it costs and so on.
Hey, I have nothing to lose and do I care what they think about that? No.
I spotted a cardboard tube found in paper towels and snagged it and wrote "konker bonker" on the tube and tried to hit the waitresses with it as they came by my table.
Also, every time I go there, there is a guy that pulls a lot of the girls to his table and he's there longer than me when I do go there (in other words, he's there before I enter the restaurant and after I leave... still there). If I didn't know any better, he's there probably every day. Every time I'm there, he's there no matter what time of day it is. But do I care? No. I'm not competing with him and nor do I care about what he's up to. I do my thing. He used to bother me but I just ignore him nowadays. I used to be a bit jealous but I let that go. Umm... why should I be jealous?
Another waitress comes by and asks, where have I been? And I answer, hiding from you. And then she strokes her finger at me (the shame shame stroke) lol. I felt like being a bit of a smart ass to her.
Overall, things are really beginning to click in place. Despite me discontinuing the other attraction subs, I still feel some of the effects from them doing their magic. The alpha male sub will make the attraction subs MUCH more effective in due time.
Now, if that mild frontal headache of mine would subside!

(09-25-2010, 09:08 AM)Ryan Wrote: I don't know, Ronnie, you're way too upbeat to turn into a jerk. "Get your pickles!!!"

(09-21-2010, 08:52 PM)woceyes Wrote: @ Ron I Like to joke around like that but Some times the Women call me Gay because of my playful manner i just laugh it off and make a joke about it. It may or may not confuse them but meh.

nice weekly recaps of stage 1 of alpha have fun with stage 2.

(09-25-2010, 08:32 AM)ronatello Wrote: Time for my recap of this week along with the entirety of stage 1.
The week: mostly good with some moodiness thrown in the last 2 days. It since has subsided and I'm in a pretty good mood now (and having the weekend off is a definite +!). I had some anger issues come up... mostly memories in the way I was treated came up and in some case, the way I acted in return. Due to high power carpet bombing, I've been lethargic pretty much during the whole time of being exposed to Alpha Male but that's okay.
I'll try to remember on what went down with all of stage 1:
1. Much in the way of letting go of the outcome. I still have some small issues with that but it will resolve itself in due time. But... it's much better now than just a month ago.
2. Slightly more confidence now than before I started. I do realize that stage 1 is just a clearing away stage and doesn't really work on confidence as the later stages do.
3. Slightly more inclined to socialize.
4. Issues washing up to be released: bitterness, some anger, some jealousy, the way I was treated in certain situations (and the lessons learned from them).
5. More apt to put myself first and sense when someone is taking advantage of me.
6. Slightly more able to speak my mind instead of being passive (this is still a major showstopper for me and I know it will get worked on bigtime by this program.)
7. Taking proper action... more work to be done here (the male pattern blindness thing, uggh! lol) but that goes back to confidence.
8. Spotting time wasters and dealing with them.
9. I dropped the Become Irresistibly Attractive To Beautiful Women for the time being... dropped it sometime during the 3rd week I think. My fears of becoming a major jerk was just a mind game. It didn't happen. I may resume the sub or the aura one after stage 3.
10. I have a lot of that "zoned out" feeling where most things felt distant to me. Actually it didn't bother me much at all. A lot of people's problems and their actions started to get on my nerves big time.
11. Joking around a bit more... when I feel like doing so.
Well, that's pretty much it for stage 1. Time for stage 2!