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RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-07-2016
Worst resistance ever. EVER. It's taking every bit of willpower I have to do anything, even just to write this update. Can't say for sure if this is the result of running AM6 with AOSI, as I'm pretty sure the AOSI programming is still floating around in my subconscious, even though it's been days since I've run it.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - 4Kingdoms - 06-07-2016
(06-07-2016, 07:33 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: Worst resistance ever. EVER. It's taking every bit of willpower I have to do anything, even just to write this update. Can't say for sure if this is the result of running AM6 with AOSI, as I'm pretty sure the AOSI programming is still floating around in my subconscious, even though it's been days since I've run it.
As tempting as it is to run both, even following the directions to the letter. AM6 should be completed once started. Just get AM6 done and over with. You can come back to AOSI at a later date.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - Shannon - 06-07-2016
I am more and more thinking AOSI/5.5G is too powerful to run at all with AM, and possibly other programs.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-07-2016
(06-07-2016, 08:02 AM)Shannon Wrote: I am more and more thinking AOSI/5.5G is too powerful to run at all with AM, and possibly other programs.
I agree. As much as it pains me, and as much as I want to run it right now, I think I'm going to let this AM6 run ride.
It's now 4 days since I ran AOSI and I'm STILL getting responses. Kinda. It's weird. This is what's going on:
So, long story short -- I'm still getting lots of IOIs and attention... but from older, undesirable women. The younger, more attractive women aren't giving me any play at all, but I was damn near stalked again while in Office Max.
I'm not sure if it's because the aura's fading, or if this crazy resistance is affecting it somehow. I wasn't going to say anything, but I'm not entirely sure if the resistance is coming from S4 of AM6.
A few days ago, I found out that a fellow colleague and entrepreneur had killed himself. I only met this dude in person once at a networking event, but we ended up kicking it together for the entire three days. There was something raw and authentic about him -- and that's something lacking in today's society. Everybody's trying to be SOMETHING, anything but themselves. He was just straight up real, holding his emotions and thoughts on his sleeve. The man was an experience. It's something I'm having a problem verbalizing, but it literally reminds me of Vin Diesel's tribute to Paul Walker at the end of Fast and Furious 7: "I used to say I lived my life a quarter mile at the time, and I think that's why we're brothers -- because you did too."
One night, we were chilling, listening to hip-hop and smoking and he confided in me how his wife was destroying his life. Cheating, lying, stealing his money and had recently started divorce proceedings. He was telling me how it was destroying his business. And I told him to take a breath, remember why he's in the game and focus his life and mission on that. He said he was good. We hugged. He left.
We chatted a few times via FB messenger after that. Kept meaning to work together, hook up. Never got around to really reconnecting, but I swear -- I thought about him a lot. Some of the convos we had. How he took on life with seemingly no fear. Looks like it overwhelmed him, though. And now she's on Facebook, talking about he was her "everything" and she doesn't know how she'll go on and shit. Basically, using his death to pull the spotlight on her.
This dude was doing good work in the world. He helped A LOT of beginners make enough money to start seeing their dreams -- and really didn't ask for much in return other than seeing them succeed. There is something missing from the sum of existence now that he's gone, and it pisses me the f*ck off that someone can just destroy a life and society gives no f*cks because she's got a vagina. And society reinforces this shit with this toxic masculinity nonsense, making men feel ashamed for their natural impulses -- so a small group of people can acquire power they don't even want. They just want to destroy. No interest in building.
I'm just ranting, but I had to get it out because I've been holding it in for a few days now, and I've spent the last few days just wanting to put my fist through a wall. In my first AM6 run, S4 was crazy fun. A feeling of zen, lots of confidence, etc. So, I'm not sure if it's the AM6 + AOSI combo, or if this thing's hitting me a lot harder than I realized. I haven't really worked on my own business since then. Like, what's the f*cking point?
Whole situation reminds me of some Lupe Fiasco lyrics:
Something about losing things, human beings
That reduces things to their most elementary
Find yourself where you never meant to be
With the energy of memories
That's the soul force of what's behind killing me
Finding pleasure in the pains
Like finding desert in the rain
Twisted: how this world can drive you masochistic
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WccFQFltjA0
I'm sitting here looking at his Facebook, reading the stories of all these beginners he helped get into the game -- how he LITERALLY saved the life of this dude and his family, days from being homeless, by getting him a promotional deal. I'm just feeling some kind of way.
Bro -- I know at the end of the day, it was your choice to do what you did, but I can't help but to feel like society failed you -- myself included. Wondering if I should've picked up the phone when you called me last month. I was too busy chasing pussy to think if you really needed something, and I'm sorry for that. I really wish you could've found the peace you said you were looking for. We said we'd do something crazy together when we both passed that 1 million mark. Since you're not here, I'll have to live it up for both of us. As men, as entrepreneurs, we just all wanna leave our mark on this world. Well, I just want you to know that you did. I'll see you when I get there.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-07-2016
Resistance started to pass after I wrote the above post, went for a run and took a short nap. I'm not completely out of the fire yet, but at least I can function. Just had to face it.
A few thoughts -- ever since I ran AOSI, I've had this mental fixation on death. Thinking and musing on my life and how I feel like this year is the first in my life. How I'd hate to die now, when I'm on my way to reaching my goals. When my colleague committed suicide, those feelings intensified and I think I was mentally running away from it.
Shannon said AOSI has an implementation of OGSF in 5.5g. Is it possible that the OGSF script in AOSI somehow "overwrote" the OGSF in AM6 and that's what caused the resistance?
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - wolverine_i_am - 06-07-2016
I'm trying to avoid AOSI from now on. I still have 8 weeks of AM6 left. Don't want any more conflicts.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-07-2016
(06-07-2016, 05:49 PM)yeah! Wrote: I did a couple runs of AOSI during AM6 and got ***** up by it. Im not using it during this run again will use E2 though weekly.
I remember Shannon saying that E2 would most likely "soften" the effects of AM6. In that case, it seems a bit counter-intuitive to run it with AM6. Would make more sense to finish your AM6 run, then run E2, followed by the AM6 refresher to restore what was "softened." Not to mention this:
(06-07-2016, 08:02 AM)Shannon Wrote: I am more and more thinking AOSI/5.5G is too powerful to run at all with AM, and possibly other programs.
Well, I for one, intend to find out. I'm going to run AOSI again according to Option B once a week rolls around. While I will concede that this bout of resistance was particularly fierce, I have to acknowledge the following:
1. The resistance has passed.
2. The resistance passed remarkably fast -- 3 days. According to my log (yes, I write all this stuff down), bouts of resistance normally last for an average of 7-10 days.
3. I feel really, really, REALLY good right now. Powerful. Motivated. Exactly how S4 felt in my first AM6 run.
The resistance began to pass after I let all those emotions out about my colleague that committed suicide on Sunday. Here's the weird thing about that: I actually cried for a few minutes when I was out on my run. I haven't cried in YEARS. This was a genuine emotional release. Over the past few hours, I've felt the stress and resistance lifting, and it's still continuing to do so.
So, I'm not quite sure that AOSI "conflicting" with the AM6 is the culprit behind this sudden outbreak of users having resistance. There's a pattern, yes. But I'm sure we all know that correlation does not imply causation. Hell, for all we know, the OGSF (or OE, or something else) in AOSI helped me breakthrough some deep seated beliefs about crying and emotional release. This situation begs for further experimentation. Someone needs to try it again -- see if the exact thing happens, intense resistance following AOSI usage according to Option B.
I'm going to be one of those people.
That being said: I completely acknowledge that I am risking the derailment of my AM6 run. I do so willingly and will not blame or disparage IML, Shannon, AM6 or DAOSI for any undesirable results.
So, peeps -- this is going to happen. If there's something you want me to look for or try, let me know. If you're going to talk down to me, or try to induce a sense of fear -- save it. If you're going to hope that my experiment fails and I come back and praise your infinite wisdom, grow the f*ck up.
EDIT: The preceding paragraph isn't directed at anyone in particular. I just know how ya'll get. :p
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - Nox - 06-07-2016
I'm all about self experimentation, so I know exactly where you're coming from on this one.
Whether it is wise or not, sometimes the worst decisions give the best results.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - SargeMaximus - 06-07-2016
Sorry about your friend.
Sounds awful. I can't imagine having that happen. I feel sad myself whenever I hear stuff like that. It's just tragic. Sometimes I wish life weren't so cruel and heartless. I'm interested to see what your next bout of AOSI is like. You're a real front-linesman, and I salute you for that.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - K-Train - 06-07-2016
Well since DJ Chaosvrgn is on the 1's and 2's and taking requests I have several:
1.) Can you compare and contrast AOSI exposure through headphones vs speaker. On paper, headphones are supposed to be superior but I'm curious about whether that remains true and how much better headphone exposure with 5.5G is (if at all).
2.) If you do any cold approaches or go on any dates could you notate the difference between how you're treated on AOSI vs times before? You could even compare it with AM if you want.
3.) If you end up getting some @ss while on AOSI, same deal as #2. Simple compare and contrast. Not too much detail. You can use your own discretion on the "too much detail" part.
4.) Let us know if the physical effects (body heat, aura projection, appetite, etc.) persist.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-08-2016
Woke up this morning feeling amazing, like I could dominate the world. I can't really put this into words, but SOMETHING feels different about reality. It sorta reminds me of the feeling of invincibility that I had on S2, but that "confidence" felt forced and fake. This feels... organic. I feel bold. I feel raw. I feel... authentic. Like, I can manifest my dreams into reality if I simply buckle down and do it.
I went to the health food store to grab some Aloe Vera juice and an organic pre-workout (tonight is sparring night at the dojo, gotta keep up with these younger guys with more testosterone). There's this cute little blonde -- maybe a 6.5/10 due to her face, but she's got a BANGING body. Every time I come in, she begins act submissive. Shooting little looks at me. Running away and hiding, acting shy. I always grin at her, and then she gets giddy and starts hanging around. Never really took the time to chat with her though.
This time, however, she took the initiative to start a chat with me. It was over something completely stupid -- their credit card machine was acting up, taking up to five minutes to process a transaction. Mine went through in seconds, and she began to ask me if there was something special about my card. Um. No. Then she started asking about my bank because she had never heard of it (I bank with an online only budget bank called Simple). THEN she asked me about the logo on my t-shirt (it's my business logo). And just chattering away. It's very obvious that she wanted me to stay, but I'm in a crazy crazy rush today. Only got time to write this because I'm backing up all my websites at the moment. AM6 or the remnants of last week's AOSI run?
At the end of the day, this makes me wonder if AOSI is "conflicting" with AM6 at all. It honestly feels like it enhanced it. Yes, admittedly, the resistance was unbelievable and the less resilient may not want to deal with it, but the after effect? I haven't felt this good in ages. I feel like the people bailing now are being blindsided by their own fear and resistance. No one said it was going to be easy. Self-improvement never is. I dunno why they think running E2 with AM6 will be easier. Both of those subliminals are designed to cause massive, massive internal change. AM6 is ruthless about it and E2 is arguably the most powerful tool for deep emotional and spiritual healing.
And your bright idea is to MIX them???? LOL. I mean, I have no doubt that the end result will be absolutely amazing, as Shannon's subs have yet to disappoint. HOWEVER, if you're stopping AOSI usage because you think it'll be easier, or you're taking this moralistic standpoint about "not focusing on women any more," I think you're mistaken. I find that there's this bias against pursuing women relentlessly. Men want to think they're "above" that. Bullsh*t.
You're emasculating yourself. We're social, sexual creatures. Sex and reproduction exist on a primal level, maybe even PRIMORDIAL. It's so deep and complicated that after all these years of research, scientists STILL can't wrap their minds around it. Shannon's created the most powerful form of self-improvement in existence and STILL has trouble making the "perfect" sub to deal with it.
If you're pulling this "I'm above women and sex, don't pursue them and focus on yourself," the ONLY thing you're doing is giving the SJWs exactly what they want. They want to separate you from your male strength and sexuality because they understand that there's a profound connection between sexual energy and social power. I tell my friends not to get their validation from women -- validation should come from within. Let's not go as far as becoming eunuch's in the name of "morality".
TL;DR: Gentlemen. Go get your d*cks wet. Many many times. AM6 + AOSI for life.
PS: I'm not anti-E2. I have every intention of running it in the near future.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - chaosvrgn - 06-08-2016
(06-07-2016, 07:39 PM)K-Train Wrote: Well since DJ Chaosvrgn is on the 1's and 2's and taking requests I have several:
1.) Can you compare and contrast AOSI exposure through headphones vs speaker. On paper, headphones are supposed to be superior but I'm curious about whether that remains true and how much better headphone exposure with 5.5G is (if at all).
2.) If you do any cold approaches or go on any dates could you notate the difference between how you're treated on AOSI vs times before? You could even compare it with AM if you want.
3.) If you end up getting some @ss while on AOSI, same deal as #2. Simple compare and contrast. Not too much detail. You can use your own discretion on the "too much detail" part.
4.) Let us know if the physical effects (body heat, aura projection, appetite, etc.) persist.
Will do, my man.
1 - This will be hard. I have my three-year-old niece around a lot. DEFINITELY, DEFINITELY don't want to expose her to AOSI via speakers. However, I did note something weird after running it on myself with headphones. She kept running up to me and grabbing my arm and rubbing her face all over it. I didn't think of it at the time, but it's kinda odd because she actually doesn't like me because I'm a disciplinarian.
2 - Will do. I'm going out either tomorrow night or Saturday with the SOLE INTENTION of approaching on AOSI.
3 - Will do. I'll try to keep it tame for you guys.
4 - No prob.
Anyone else?
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - SargeMaximus - 06-08-2016
Hey chaos, I agree with you about the whole "go get some ass" sentiments. But my situation is a little different (at least I think so. let me know if I have a f*cked up perspective
) See, I'm REALLY close to homelessness, yet again. I HAVE to buckle down and focus all my attention on improving my appointment to sales ratio, or I'll be out in the street.That kind of focus takes time and energy that would otherwise be spent trying to get with girls.
In my case, it's not a moral high ground. Maybe I'm just not being resourceful enough, but I don't think I should divide my focus like that when I'm so close to losing everything. lol
I dunno man. Did you read my entry in my journal about the girl I met while doing sales? What would you have done in that situation?
As for your experiment, I'd love to see what happens if you approach a woman and try to keep your talking to a minimum, while leading her to a crazy encounter. So, public makeout (in the day) or sex and see how far she'll follow your lead without building any connection.
When I suggested the idea of the bubble to Shannon, the idea was to make a reality where things are pre-qualified and one doesn't have to build connection, rapport, whatever, because it was already there, thus leaving us to only have to act on our affection.
RE: Say F**k It / Before We Kick the Bucket (AM6 2nd Run / AOSI) - stratos - 06-08-2016
Hey Sarge can I recommend a pure telesales job for you instead of door to door sales. Something higher end with potential for 100-200k commissions like B2B tech or software, for example blackbaud.com who just opened a Toronto office. You can crank through more leads even on the qualifying side than you ever possibly could door to door. I think you've paid your dues door to door and a recruiter in your city could find you work in a cold minute that's better than what you're doing now. it's the natural progression in a sales career.