OK! I was in the middle of typing a response, and it was quite detailed too... but the power went out at the office building and I lost it all (more about this later). didn't have time to write again until now..
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to elaborate on what I said were the differences in euphoria: first, let me add to my statement that I think the euphoria is more dopamine like than it is endorphin like. I'd wager it's dopamine, serotonin, and endorphin all working in concert.
in 3.0,I lovingly attributed the name "H Drip" to the euphoria tags, for the obvious reason that the morphine drip effect felt a lot more like its illegal cousin, H. Especially during those moments I was in pure script acceptance mode. The euphoria tags power would literally melt emotional pain or physical pain with its opioid-like feeling; hence, why I determine 3.0 ran primarily on endorphins.
The feeling last night from 3.1 was a confident, upbeat euphoria. Not upbeat in the "hyper" sense, but it definitely wasn't a 'numbing' effect that would be attributed to an endorphin rush. I felt confident, and sure of myself, in a healthy way. I felt no shadow of a doubt that I will achieve the goals of dmsi -- whether it's from 3.1 or beyond is irrelevant; I know I'll achieve this goal.
This morning, I felt a new facet of the euphoria. It was very similar to a dose of MDMA. I messaged the skype group saying how much I want to scream "I LOVE YOU GUYS". Weird, but the cameraderie and togetherness we've experienced over the course of 3.0 has given me a bond with like minded men. A "fellowship" so to speak, who I can safely say I've been searching for my whole life.
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So last night I load up the tracks on my old school Sony mp3 player. I copied 3.1A twice so that I would have 2 back to back loops. I laid down and ended up sleeping while listening to the loops. I woke up a few hours later, and I look at the time, see it's 1:30, and realize the mp3 player was on repeat ONE so I was on mofuqqin loop 4.... I was so pissed that I ruined my listening time on the first night. lol.
I also want to mention that the past few days I've been getting a physical detox like effect. I didn't think much about it until today... but I want to attribute it to 3.1. My poop smelled like the plaque I take out of my teeth with dental floss. Gross, I know. but i have to report it. #dimseetester. Anyway, I feel more lively, and energetic. I think I am detoxing for real.
Anyway so today, I get some noticeable reaction from women. Don't really feel like talking about them because it's lacking in depth. I will be going somewhere tonight where I have another chance to test out the aura.
BUT I want to revisit the power going out in my office.
It was around 3:20 pm, and I was in the middle of typing on this journal. I was racking my brain trying to figure out how to describe the euphoria. and tehn BAM. power goes out. Not just in my office, but the whole 5 story building. It made no sense. My first egotistical thought was that my aura was pulling energy from the electricity (WTF --- as I typed that sentence, the light in the room I'm sitting in faded in and out -- never done that before o_O). After thinking about ti some, I thought. NAH it couldn't have been me.... but then quickly remembered twice in my life before when I had dealt with massive amounts of psy energy: (1) the transformer for my street blew out, and (2) I fried my handheld electronics. So anyway, the power had gone out and didn't show ANY signs of returning and my colleague and I were sitting in the office for 30 minutes talking about alternate realities, dreamtime, and other similar stuff.
This is effectively the 3rd experience (the light fading in and out while typing can be experience # "3a") of psy energy. Call me crazy, call me mental. I know I am. XD XD XD XD
but for real. i absolutely HAD to report that.
Could it be because I overdosed on 3.1A and listened to 4 mofuqqin loops? Could it be that my aura is literally sourcing everything it could?
I ate like a beast today. I ate breakfast at 8. I ended up eating my lunch at 10. Ate half a chocolate bar as a snack at 1. Went to a chinese restaurant and ate a WHOLE PLATE of chow mein at 5pm. jeez. I bet I can eat more too. But first I need to make room in my stomach lol.
***to be continued
