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04-24-2017, 06:27 AM
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(04-24-2017 05:24 AM)Zane Wrote:  Day 14

I feel as if I am going thru some kind of awakening.

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04-26-2017, 06:43 PM (This post was last modified: 04-27-2017 08:35 PM by Zane.)
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
Day 17

Updates:

Skin scars are healing but real slow. Few bumps or boil(wherever they are called) did emerge in first week but its okay now.

I went phases where I would be chilling and suddenly out of nowhere I will be running towards toilet and a Huge load of crap would come out. Its detox for sure. Sometimes I would just take a sip of juice and within 15 min I would shit 10 times what I have taken or eaten..But after that I would feel so relaxed,cleaned ,purified.....Before MHS It we just a struggle now its like a Hobby..loool

I also noticed that my right sinuses and nasal cavity are much more open now. I can feel the cold air going thru it. I went(still going) thru a lot of sneezing and coughing. A Lot of crap came out it was a dark green semi-solid stuff. I have been suffering from Nasal Polyp for past 6 years and I had my second surgery in Last December. But things were starting to get bad again in 2-3 months but after using MHS my sinuses are opening and I can breath easily now. Its 2 weeks since I took any meds and MHS is working much better than med..(Dont worry I will still take my meds)

My erections are much harder and stronger. Cool

My sleep schedule which was messed up for past 4 years is now fixing on its own. Its still fluctuating but 2-3 hours . I used to sleep in day and will be awake at night. I still feel drowsy in day time but I wont sleep no matter what cause I know my body is trying to adjust itself.

Stiffness and pain in neck and back has somewhat decrease but its still there.

I avoid biting my nails ..Was a major concern for me.

Today I noticed that I dont experience any bad breath after waking up...I was so surprised by this.

Also during this time I noticed that my teeth are shining much more and kinda look white.

I avoid drinking Tea and Coffee.

As far as cognitive abilities are concern I am able to organise my thoughts somewhat clearly and memory is kinda improved but still concentration abilities are ***** up..Will take time I know that for sure..

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04-27-2017, 08:41 AM
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That feels like a life upgrade! Congrats on your progress Smile

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04-28-2017, 07:58 PM (This post was last modified: 04-29-2017 08:09 PM by Zane.)
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
Day 19

I have started taking Omega-3 Fish Oil 1000mg. What's weird is that as soon as I took it within 10 mins I started feeling sleepy. That's weird. I googled and found out few people having same problem so they take it at night. I never ever responded to supplements that fast in my life...

I think its a phase from Omega 3 to make me sleepy so that it can fix my brain when I am no longer using it. Will take it at night from now. I am taking Spirulina-500mg with Vita-C-500mg to 1000mg(depending on my mood lool)

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04-29-2017, 08:18 PM (This post was last modified: 04-29-2017 08:20 PM by Zane.)
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Day 20

For past 2-3 three days I am having dreams which is related to school and using cognitive abilities.. I mean its as if MHS is rewrite the past in my head about things which I wasn't able to accomplish due to my ADHD type personality..
I think this only means that MHS is now working on my mental healing.. I can't say for sure but dreams do point in this direction.
Also after taking Omega-3 1000mg yesterday I slept real nice today and woke up at around 6am.

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05-02-2017, 02:25 AM (This post was last modified: 05-02-2017 08:05 PM by Benjamin.)
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Day 22

Well I am gonna write these thoughts down as I feel it will be like reaffirming to myself or something like that.

My whole life I have lived as "nice guy". I helped people even if they didn't helped me back. They use to make fun of me and I thought that I was important to them. But I was only fooling myself..Someone would ask me for help and I couldn't even say "No" and next thing you know I will be doing stuff which wouldn't even want to. I thought that I wast doing a good thing by going against my wishes and intentions to help someone..
This was since my childhood. No one in my family is like this except my mom and I know that I inherited this from her but I was a level beyond that..

They use to call me "Nice kid" or "Nice Guy".. Being called nice is like saying that u are so weak that even if they hurt u.. You don't have enough strength to fight back... Its a taboo..
My friends were only with me cause they all had their selfish reason.

My relatives and friends all of them are ***** Hypocrites.. Everyone of them. They think they are so spiritual but I can see them that they are such a big Hypocrites. [rule 4]

I think the reason I have so much mental disorders is because I never listened to my soul/subconscious whatever you want to call it.. No wonder I was suffering from MDD, SAD, ADHD, Insomnia and all other shit..
But one thing I knew before even finding IML.. That I knew I will fix myself.. I always had hope in myself That one day things will change..

I was at a stage that I would go to sleep and would never even want to wake up again. I spend months inside my house and never going outside.. I was so scared and full of shame whenever I would step outside my house...

I was so much exhausted mentally and physically that I was about to just give up cause I stood up so many times but this time I didn't have the strength to.. But help came and I am healing now and getting better.. I never knew who I was. I was so busy in outside world.

OF and MHS are two things that have started to fix things.. MHS healing my mind and body. I am just so happy that I found my way out of this.. and from this day onwards things are only gonna get better cause bad days are over..

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05-02-2017, 05:03 AM (This post was last modified: 05-02-2017 05:07 AM by Blink.)
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
(05-02-2017 02:25 AM)Zane Wrote:  My whole life I have lived as "nice guy". I helped people even if they didn't helped me back. They use to make fun of me and I thought that I was important to them. But I was only fooling myself..Someone would ask me for help and I couldn't even say "No" and next thing you know I will be doing stuff which wouldn't even want to. I thought that I wast doing a good thing by going against my wishes and intentions to help someone..
This was since my childhood. No one in my family is like this except my mom and I know that I inherited this from her but I was a level beyond that..

They use to call me "Nice kid" or "Nice Guy".. Being called nice is like saying that u are so weak that even if they hurt u.. You don't have enough strength to fight back... Its a taboo..
My friends were only with me cause they all had their selfish reason.

I relate to most of this. I'm a nice guy myself Smile This is the way I look at it tho. I love that part of me. Well... I used to hate it. But I've come to the realization that the world needs nice guys.

It's just what you make of it. People will tell you that "nice guys finish last". I disagree with that. Being a nice guy hasn't stopped me from having good relationships with people, it hasn't stopped me from having girlfriends either Smile And every single one of them has told me that I'm a sweet loving person. Because I am. And that's mainly because I'm nice and I try not to hurt people's feelings and do good as much as I can. But there's a couple of things I can't stand, and if anyone exhibits them, I'm history. Unwarranted disrespect and treating me like a doormat. Any of these two things happen, they'll get a warning. It happens again, I'll drop the relationship and never look back (which would suck balls of course... but it's the right thing to do for the long run). I'm so much ingrained in that state that no one has exhibited that behaviour in ages.

So, like I said. It's what you make of it. Nice guys that allow themselves to be treated as doormats will finish last. Having said that, you will probably have to go through the hate part and trying to be an asshole/jerk part before coming to an acceptance. I didn't go through that phase myself, I watched a friend do it tho, and I learned from that.

Also, on a side note, have you taken a MBTI personality test? We seem to be the same type Big Grin (Or very close)

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05-02-2017, 05:12 AM (This post was last modified: 05-03-2017 04:35 PM by Benjamin.)
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
(05-02-2017 02:25 AM)Zane Wrote:  Day 22

Well I am gonna write these thoughts down as I feel it will be like reaffirming to myself or something like that.

My whole life I have lived as "nice guy". I helped people even if they didn't helped me back. They use to make fun of me and I thought that I was important to them. But I was only fooling myself..Someone would ask me for help and I couldn't even say "No" and next thing you know I will be doing stuff which wouldn't even want to. I thought that I wast doing a good thing by going against my wishes and intentions to help someone..
This was since my childhood. No one in my family is like this except my mom and I know that I inherited this from her but I was a level beyond that..

They use to call me "Nice kid" or "Nice Guy".. Being called nice is like saying that u are so weak that even if they hurt u.. You don't have enough strength to fight back... Its a taboo..
My friends were only with me cause they all had their selfish reason.

My relatives and friends all of them are ***** Hypocrites.. Everyone of them. They think they are so spiritual but I can see them that they are such a big Hypocrites that even [rule 4]

I think the reason I have so much mental disorders is because I never listened to my soul/subconscious whatever you want to call it.. No wonder I was suffering from MDD, SAD, ADHD, Insomnia and all other shit..
But one thing I knew before even finding IML.. That I knew I will fix myself..
I was at a stage that I would go to sleep and would never even want to wake up again. I spend months inside my house and never going outside.. I was so scared and full of shame whenever I would step outside my house...

I was so much exhausted mentally and physically that I was about to just give up cause I stood up so many times but this time I didn't have the strength to.. But help came and I am healing now and getting better.. I never knew who I was. I was so busy in outside world.

OF and MHS are two things that have started to fix things.. MHS healing my mind and body. I am just so happy that I found my way out of this.. and from this day onwards things are only gonna get better cause bad days are over..

As I'm currently in a difficult situation which also happened because I helped too much, my inability to say no, I could relate to your story.
Surprisingly, I think I inherit it from my mom too.

I tried my best not to come out bitter and stop being kind, I learned to calculate and having a careful approach before helping anyone around.
For I don't know if the help I provide might harm anyone's state (like being dependent to me, or not trying the best before reaching out for help) or it ends up backfiring like what I'm going through now.

I wish you strength, man.
Cheers,

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05-02-2017, 08:56 AM (This post was last modified: 05-02-2017 08:59 AM by Zane.)
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
Guys I seriously don't know why I am having thoughts like this.

I feel that MHS hitting my mental issues so that it can heal. I can't explain I feel like a blank canvas and I really don't know what's right or wrong. I am seeing things with multiple perception. I mean I can see a situation and I can find multiple ways to look at that problem and due to this I am not able to decide if that is right or wrong...

For example.. My Uncle came and told my sis that he was the reason my father got the job and is so much successful.
But then my sis told this to my father in front of my mother and then my mother got angry that he(uncle) shouldn't have told this to my sis and they she will make sure that he will pay for this but then my father got defensive and said that what my uncle said is true he did alot for him when he was poor.. But then my mother said kids don't need to know all this.. But father said no.. Kids have the rights to know this cause it's the truth...

After that I said told my sis that she should have kept her mouth shut in front of mom and then she began fighting me



First perception : If only my uncle didn't came then we won't have been fighting.. Cause we only fight when any relatives come and says shit like this.. So it's their fault.

Second Perception : My sis should have kept her mouth shut. If only she had done this then we won't be fighting.

Third Perception : I should have stayed away and should have said nothing.

Fourth Perception : What my uncle said was true cause he did help my father and still do even in bad times... So my egoistic mom and sis should learn to accept this truth and no one can become successful without some or someone's help..

Fifth Perception : Women and girls always create problems even of simple stuff..

I seeing all this at same time.. . Idk what or whose right or wrong..

Before this I had only perception and I believed in that but right now Idk what to believe in.. I feel like a blank canvas.. Idk what's right or wrong..

I am feeling confused about so many things..

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05-02-2017, 09:05 AM (This post was last modified: 05-02-2017 09:06 AM by Alpha360.)
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Right or wrong exist and right or wrong doesn't exist at the same time.
Like Richard Bandler says, hypnosis exist and it doesn't exist Big Grin both of them are true at the same time and there are also false at the same time.

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05-02-2017, 04:36 PM
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
Quote:But one thing I knew before even finding IML.. That I knew I will fix myself.. I always had hope in myself and my Lord(Sorry Ben) That one day things will change..

Seriously, you KNOW when you're writing it and you still do? Plus then you go on and write more about that..

Do you want me to edit it or will you?
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05-02-2017, 05:28 PM (This post was last modified: 05-02-2017 05:36 PM by Zane.)
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
(05-02-2017 04:36 PM)Benjamin Wrote:  
Quote:But one thing I knew before even finding IML.. That I knew I will fix myself.. I always had hope in myself and my Lord(Sorry Ben) That one day things will change..

Seriously, you KNOW when you're writing it and you still do? Plus then you go on and write more about that..

Do you want me to edit it or will you?

LOL.. I am just messing with ya... I mean this means that u have some kinda radar. How do u know? Do u read each and every post?

Ok will edit it

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05-02-2017, 11:41 PM
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(05-02-2017 05:03 AM)Blink Wrote:  
(05-02-2017 02:25 AM)Zane Wrote:  My whole life I have lived as "nice guy". I helped people even if they didn't helped me back. They use to make fun of me and I thought that I was important to them. But I was only fooling myself..Someone would ask me for help and I couldn't even say "No" and next thing you know I will be doing stuff which wouldn't even want to. I thought that I wast doing a good thing by going against my wishes and intentions to help someone..
This was since my childhood. No one in my family is like this except my mom and I know that I inherited this from her but I was a level beyond that..

They use to call me "Nice kid" or "Nice Guy".. Being called nice is like saying that u are so weak that even if they hurt u.. You don't have enough strength to fight back... Its a taboo..
My friends were only with me cause they all had their selfish reason.

I relate to most of this. I'm a nice guy myself Smile This is the way I look at it tho. I love that part of me. Well... I used to hate it. But I've come to the realization that the world needs nice guys.

It's just what you make of it. People will tell you that "nice guys finish last". I disagree with that. Being a nice guy hasn't stopped me from having good relationships with people, it hasn't stopped me from having girlfriends either Smile And every single one of them has told me that I'm a sweet loving person. Because I am. And that's mainly because I'm nice and I try not to hurt people's feelings and do good as much as I can. But there's a couple of things I can't stand, and if anyone exhibits them, I'm history. Unwarranted disrespect and treating me like a doormat. Any of these two things happen, they'll get a warning. It happens again, I'll drop the relationship and never look back (which would suck balls of course... but it's the right thing to do for the long run). I'm so much ingrained in that state that no one has exhibited that behaviour in ages.

So, like I said. It's what you make of it. Nice guys that allow themselves to be treated as doormats will finish last. Having said that, you will probably have to go through the hate part and trying to be an asshole/jerk part before coming to an acceptance. I didn't go through that phase myself, I watched a friend do it tho, and I learned from that.

Also, on a side note, have you taken a MBTI personality test? We seem to be the same type Big Grin (Or very close)

I am kinda confused right now and what I should be maybe its the MHS healing.

No I haven't taken any personality test.. Do u know any good site where I can take one?

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05-03-2017, 06:29 AM
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
(05-02-2017 11:41 PM)Zane Wrote:  I am kinda confused right now and what I should be maybe its the MHS healing.

No I haven't taken any personality test.. Do u know any good site where I can take one?

Confusion is definitely part of emotional healing. And since it's all intertwined MHS could be leading you to emotional healing as well Smile Eternity mentioned something similar on his MHS thread!

For a personality test, you can Google "MBTI test". Lots of options will pop up. You can find a popular one here:
https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

Don't take the result for granted tho. Just read up its description and see if you relate to it.

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05-03-2017, 06:45 AM
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
(05-03-2017 06:29 AM)Blink Wrote:  Confusion is definitely part of emotional healing. And since it's all intertwined MHS could be leading you to emotional healing as well Smile Eternity mentioned something similar on his MHS thread!

For a personality test, you can Google "MBTI test". Lots of options will pop up. You can find a popular one here:
https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

Don't take the result for granted tho. Just read up its description and see if you relate to it.

I would not recommend the 16 personalities. It's from my experience a really bad one.

The best I've found is http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp

And just like Blink is saying, don't take the test for granted. The test just shows which 4, of 8 total functions you prefer. The more developed a person is, the more "equal" their functions are making it hard to type their "preference".
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05-03-2017, 09:52 AM
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(05-03-2017 06:45 AM)ReeZoX Wrote:  
(05-03-2017 06:29 AM)Blink Wrote:  Confusion is definitely part of emotional healing. And since it's all intertwined MHS could be leading you to emotional healing as well Smile Eternity mentioned something similar on his MHS thread!

For a personality test, you can Google "MBTI test". Lots of options will pop up. You can find a popular one here:
https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

Don't take the result for granted tho. Just read up its description and see if you relate to it.

I would not recommend the 16 personalities. It's from my experience a really bad one.

The best I've found is http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp

And just like Blink is saying, don't take the test for granted. The test just shows which 4, of 8 total functions you prefer. The more developed a person is, the more "equal" their functions are making it hard to type their "preference".

Interesting. Every time I've ever taken a test, I come up ENFJ. This is the first time I've ever tested INFJ - which is cool, because I've always considered myself an introvert.
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05-03-2017, 04:36 PM
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Quote:LOL.. I am just messing with ya... I mean this means that u have some kinda radar. How do u know? Do u read each and every post?

I'm magical. Big Grin
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05-05-2017, 08:33 AM
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
Day 25

I had the most embarrassing day today... All thanks to Brainfog.

I went with my uncle and I wasn't able to remember the names of places. I knew they existed but I wasn't able to create a map in my head. All thanks to brainfog.. Idk how MHS of gonna solve it but I hope it soon does it.. I feel so dumb.

Maybe I need to visit a psychiatrist for this or Idk.. Any advice would be good.

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05-05-2017, 08:53 AM
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(05-03-2017 09:52 AM)RTBoss Wrote:  
(05-03-2017 06:45 AM)ReeZoX Wrote:  
(05-03-2017 06:29 AM)Blink Wrote:  Confusion is definitely part of emotional healing. And since it's all intertwined MHS could be leading you to emotional healing as well Smile Eternity mentioned something similar on his MHS thread!

For a personality test, you can Google "MBTI test". Lots of options will pop up. You can find a popular one here:
https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

Don't take the result for granted tho. Just read up its description and see if you relate to it.

I would not recommend the 16 personalities. It's from my experience a really bad one.

The best I've found is http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/jtypes2.asp

And just like Blink is saying, don't take the test for granted. The test just shows which 4, of 8 total functions you prefer. The more developed a person is, the more "equal" their functions are making it hard to type their "preference".

Interesting. Every time I've ever taken a test, I come up ENFJ. This is the first time I've ever tested INFJ - which is cool, because I've always considered myself an introvert.

best way to determine if you're I/E is to check how you feel after being around a group of people.

do you feel recharged after leaving a group setting?

OR

do you feel recharged after a night in?

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@OP: Re brainfog - I experience this too, and there have been certain substances that help with brain fog, but I've yet to rid myself of brainfog naturally. Sad

i bet clean diet and clean living would help.

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05-05-2017, 09:22 AM
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RE: MHS-5.5G Journal
I am taking Spirulina 500mg daily
Omega-3 1000mg
Vita C 2000 mg

Any other substances that helped you? Can u name them.

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