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07-26-2017, 02:20 PM (This post was last modified: 07-27-2017 01:57 AM by Raz.)
Post: #41
Day 6
(07-26-2017 12:13 PM)Shannon Wrote:  Also try white, oolong and black teas.

White and oolong might prove a bit tricky to get a hold of at the moment, but they are absolutely on my 'extract of the tea plant to try' list. Black tea however ... not my cup of tea Wink Although I'll probably prioritize experiments over taste this time now that you pointed me into this direction. I'll include yerba mate and guarana as well, because it happens to lie around.

ION: I experienced the euphoria very clear for the first time today. Happened after I asked an experienced and specialized workmate about something he is working on (because it suddenly seemed sooo interesting to me). I am notoriously bad at asking someone else anything. My ingrained (and faulty) modus operandi is "I'll figure it out alone. And if I don't figure it out it is not meant to be.'

It's not even been a full week ... and I already enjoy this sub like no other before it.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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07-26-2017, 04:59 PM
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RE: Flinging Open the Doors of Perception - An MLS 5.5 G Tale
Matcha Tea Wink A better version of green tea.
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07-27-2017, 12:24 AM (This post was last modified: 07-27-2017 01:57 AM by Raz.)
Post: #43
Day 7
Dreams, dreams, dreams. I am able to recall more every night. But I want total recall Wink

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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07-27-2017, 11:04 AM
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RE: Flinging Open the Doors of Perception - An MLS 5.5 G Tale
(07-27-2017 12:24 AM)Raz Wrote:  Dreams, dreams, dreams. I am able to recall more every night. But I want total recall Wink

Apply MLS to learning lucid dreaming....Ah, man, I'm almost talked into it!
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07-27-2017, 01:47 PM
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Day 7
(07-27-2017 11:04 AM)RTBoss Wrote:  
(07-27-2017 12:24 AM)Raz Wrote:  Dreams, dreams, dreams. I am able to recall more every night. But I want total recall Wink

Apply MLS to learning lucid dreaming....Ah, man, I'm almost talked into it!

It is on my mental list ... and has been for a long time. I hope that all the memory/recall will not only shine in waking life but in dreamland as well. Which would be the first and major step Smile

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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07-28-2017, 12:04 AM
Post: #46
Day 8
I am in a state of perpetual change. I cannot adequately put it into words but every day is different, every day I am different. And thus I welcome every new day because anything might happen.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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07-29-2017, 12:55 AM
Post: #47
Day 9
I am beginning to see some bars of my very own golden cage that have been invisible to me before. I have been asking myself what the heck it is that is holding me back to advance beyond the point I am at right now. I am beginning to see (and thus to dismantle, I hope).

My 'social class' heritage is holding me back big time. "Money and success are not for me, I don't want to be one of them upper class assholes. I am working class and as long as I make ends meet I am on the right way." I never realized how poisonous this burned-in thinking really is until now.

MLS is enabling me to touch stuff I have never been able to reach before.

Onward!

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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07-29-2017, 02:31 AM
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RE: Flinging Open the Doors of Perception - An MLS 5.5 G Tale
(07-29-2017 12:55 AM)Raz Wrote:  My 'social class' heritage is holding me back big time. "Money and success are not for me, I don't want to be one of them upper class assholes. I am working class and as long as I make ends meet I am on the right way." I never realized how poisonous this burned-in thinking really is until now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xdY90Kx5ZI
If you have time read the book Ask and It Is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires

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07-29-2017, 02:50 AM (This post was last modified: 07-29-2017 02:51 AM by Raz.)
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Day 9
(07-29-2017 02:31 AM)4Kingdoms Wrote:  
(07-29-2017 12:55 AM)Raz Wrote:  My 'social class' heritage is holding me back big time. "Money and success are not for me, I don't want to be one of them upper class assholes. I am working class and as long as I make ends meet I am on the right way." I never realized how poisonous this burned-in thinking really is until now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0xdY90Kx5ZI
If you have time read the book Ask and It Is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires

Thank you, 4K. Very good stuff to change my own mindset into.

I have the book sitting on my harddrive, never really got far into it though. I'll take it up again.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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07-29-2017, 09:05 AM (This post was last modified: 07-29-2017 09:10 AM by Raz.)
Post: #50
Day 9
Last night I changed listening devices to take advantage of listening to the .flac versions on a regular basis. Finally.

Came home from work around midnight, dangled around for a bit, not ready to fall asleep (massive change compared to MHS or DMSI, on which I would crash immediately). Started the loops and was instantly wide awake for the first two loops, then drifting in and out of sleep during the final two loops. Four more hours of sleep and I woke up naturally. That is my sleep pattern since I started MLS.

I feel noticeably more rested and efficient than on MHS/DMSI though, where I'd fall asleep without delay while playing the subs and sleep around 8 to 10 (occasionally 14) hours per night.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-01-2017, 09:26 AM
Post: #51
Day 12
I am not really tracking anymore in grand detail what the sub does. I use it and go about my stuff.

Random people seem to perceive me as very approachable and talk to me a lot. Well, I smile a lot and am invested in any kind of conversation these days, meaning I AM open and approachable, so that is that.

I am more curious about and interested in many topics again. These topics would look rather random to outsiders, but I see a very tight connection (and use) for every last one of them. It is the continuation of a strangely focused and directed self-development that has started a long time ago. I don't know where it will lead me, but I have learned to recognize pieces of that puzzle when I encounter them.

The duration of concentration periods has not yet increased by a lot. There is some progress, but I am still a long way from where I have been before. I shall, however, get there again and beyond, it's simply a matter of time.

Another thing that's becoming obvious is how short my fuse is at the moment. It doesn't take much to get me going. On the other hand, I am usually holding myself back and swallow what angers me, which is not exactly healthy either.

And last but not least, I still suck at visualizing Wink

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-02-2017, 10:59 AM
Post: #52
Day 13
As written before, listening to MLS during the night wrecks my sleep. If I listen to it so that the loops are finished directly before I hit the bunk I have a sweet relaxing night full of deep and invigorating sleep.

Eating a lot, on the other hand, is still present, including going on a food hunt in the middle of the night in the nearest supermarket. Gotta get that somewhat under control.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-03-2017, 06:33 AM
Post: #53
Day 14
I am becoming something like a social rockstar.

When I open my mouth these days I seem to transform the perception of the people around me. This is also working on a non-verbal level, through warmly smiling A LOT. I smile because I genuinely enjoy myself and everything around me.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-06-2017, 02:30 AM
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Day 17
I think that I am too afraid to visualize and thus I don't allow myself to do it. Sounds strange? It totally is.

I am entertaining the idea that I have consciously developed the ability to block myself from visualization at least partly in response to horror movies. You know the drill, in a scene you expect something gruesome to suddenly appear, you know it will, the soundscape is overripe with tension. You imagine all kinds of stuff that might happen. And then something pops up. You are scared. Thus you power down your natural ability to visualize (or that's what I did) because you connected it to scary shit over and over again and (as another important step) deem yourself unable to steer your visualizing thoughts at times. Which results in sometimes scary visual imagination that you feel overcome by because you think you don't have control over your thoughts/imagination.

That is my working hypothesis at the moment for parts of why I have a hard time to visualize. Gotta probe a bit deeper to see if it holds water.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-06-2017, 03:46 AM
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RE: Flinging Open the Doors of Perception - An MLS 5.5 G Tale
(08-06-2017 02:30 AM)Raz Wrote:  I think that I am too afraid to visualize and thus I don't allow myself to do it. Sounds strange? It totally is.

I am entertaining the idea that I have consciously developed the ability to block myself from visualization at least partly in response to horror movies. You know the drill, in a scene you expect something gruesome to suddenly appear, you know it will, the soundscape is overripe with tension. You imagine all kinds of stuff that might happen. And then something pops up. You are scared. Thus you power down your natural ability to visualize (or that's what I did) because you connected it to scary shit over and over again and (as another important step) deem yourself unable to steer your visualizing thoughts at times. Which results in sometimes scary visual imagination that you feel overcome by because you think you don't have control over your thoughts/imagination.

That is my working hypothesis at the moment for parts of why I have a hard time to visualize. Gotta probe a bit deeper to see if it holds water.

This world ***** everyone of us real nice

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08-06-2017, 07:26 AM (This post was last modified: 08-06-2017 07:28 AM by Raz.)
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Day 17
(08-06-2017 03:46 AM)Zane Wrote:  
(08-06-2017 02:30 AM)Raz Wrote:  I think that I am too afraid to visualize and thus I don't allow myself to do it. Sounds strange? It totally is.

I am entertaining the idea that I have consciously developed the ability to block myself from visualization at least partly in response to horror movies. You know the drill, in a scene you expect something gruesome to suddenly appear, you know it will, the soundscape is overripe with tension. You imagine all kinds of stuff that might happen. And then something pops up. You are scared. Thus you power down your natural ability to visualize (or that's what I did) because you connected it to scary shit over and over again and (as another important step) deem yourself unable to steer your visualizing thoughts at times. Which results in sometimes scary visual imagination that you feel overcome by because you think you don't have control over your thoughts/imagination.

That is my working hypothesis at the moment for parts of why I have a hard time to visualize. Gotta probe a bit deeper to see if it holds water.

This world ***** everyone of us real nice

No. It is all part of making experiences, really of experiencing. You cannot experience anything without being influenced. It is reflection that is lacking. Reflection on how things influence you and what you do with that knowledge.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-07-2017, 01:23 AM (This post was last modified: 08-07-2017 01:24 AM by Raz.)
Post: #57
Day 18
I can tell that I am getting back on track with my whole life. Where other subliminals seemed to take me on a different road that ultimately wasn't mine (which I only realized once I had taken enough steps in these directions), MLS seems to be very much in sync with my route (wherever it may lead).

I am working slowly through some issues. No idea what issues exactly, but my dreamscape is very much explicit that I am working on something a whole lot. Likely more than one thing.

Sometimes I even get that sense of wonder again that fuels me to discover and explore.

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-07-2017, 02:41 AM (This post was last modified: 08-07-2017 02:41 AM by Raz.)
Post: #58
Day 18
I have avoided reading scientific literature that plays on my playground for a long time. Last few times I tried I couldn't really concentrate on it and consequently wouldn't really understand the data and implications that the authors wanted to make. That had a lot to do with fear of failure and thinking that I am not good enough. Thus I went into hiding and ran from it a lot.

Now I am finally taking the simple steps and am coming out of my shell again. Reluctantly I gave reading some rather specific papers a try ... and boy oh boy, not only do I completely understand the reasoning, data, and implications, I also clearly see the flaws and over-interpretations and am able to articulate them (the latter being something I had always had my problems with).

Needless to say that I am happy and blown away Big Grin

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-07-2017, 11:50 PM
Post: #59
Day 19
A note concerning subgoal 70.

Quote:70. Pass processing and calculation/design needs to the appropriate part and level of the subconscious, and then have that part pass the answer back to the conscious mind when it has completed and optimized the task.

Yesterday I consciously tried to take advantage of this module by attempting to pass the task of optimizing a figure of a manuscript to my subconscious mind.

Since waking up today ideas keep pouring into my conscious mind, including several alternative versions of the thing I wanted to optimize in this figure.

This is the beginning of a beautiful friendship Wink

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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08-10-2017, 02:06 PM
Post: #60
Day 21
The anger is back.

While the past few days have been relatively quiet, today was characterized by pure very deep anger. I was openly angry and snapped at people that acted smug and entitled, I felt burningly angry towards people that I perceived to take advantage of me, angry at people for telling me how to do things when they themselves couldn't do them properly at all. I even yelled furiously at my dad in a dream last night.

I am not sure but I have a hunch that this is related to the long past days of elementary school and even kindergarten. It just ominously reminds me of it.

Interesting things is that as soon as I release the anger verbally (doesn't matter if I raise my voice or calmly express what angers me) it is gone. No mental replay, no sulking, no 'I am better than thou'. Well ... like really released. Maybe ... is this how such a state of mind should be dealt with in a healthy way?

Iғ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜɪɴɢs, ᴛʜᴇ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ʏᴏᴜ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ᴄʜᴀɴɢᴇ.
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