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Transcendent Sith Lord's 3.2 Journal- Chapter 1: The TID Chronicles
02-09-2018, 05:24 PM
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RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's 3.2 Journal- Chapter 1: The TID Chronicles
(02-09-2018 04:16 PM)Benjamin Wrote:  
Quote:I think about this and how people keep saying , "Well there's more important things than sex in a relationship".

Why do I feel like the people who say this are either women who are trying to manipulate men with sex or men who aren't getting any? Funny isn't it.

Yes sex isn't the ONLY thing.. but it's a pretty important thing to me and a good relationship can't function without good sex.

Yep, you pointed out 2 types of people who make that argument though I have different reasons why they do this. The type of men I hear this argument from are usually men in relationships who ,as you say, aren't getting any. Honestly, I think they do this in a defensive way. They don't want to admit their relationship isn't meeting their desires so they throw that argument out there. They probably don't want to put any blame on this on the woman either because they probably been indoctrinated with the whole "the woman is always right" garbage.

For the women I think they use this often as, you say, a manipulation tactic but also as a shaming tactic as well. I see it mainly as a way that they don't have to fulfill any of their partners desires in the relationship. Lets face it pretty much the idea of Person B in the relationship expecting person A to uphold all their responsibilities and obligations but when it comes time for person B to uphold their side they either renegade or give in as less as possible. A guy who isn't a cuck would just realize whats going on and totally leave the dealing table totally but you have too many men who would stay thinking if they only "keep giving more" the other person on the other side of the table will start up holding their end. Of course when they bring the subject up and she uses that shaming language they automatically feel ashamed for their own desires and don't do anything more about it. Kind of stupid in my opinion, especially since I've seen guys figuratively walk away from the table and the woman soon actually starts want to start fulfilling what he desires in the relationship.

Like you I think I've realized that my desires are just as valid and reasonable in such a relationship and if your one of those women who want to keep on taking but never given in return. That you think your mere presence in the relationship is good enough, guess what? There's the door and don't let it hit you on the way out. I kind of new this to be true for a while but to fully embrace it took a while. I think this is probably because growing up I had a blue pilled step father who did the exact thing you should not do above and this literally got to the point where he was sleeping on the couch every night and probably only got sex like once or twice a year for several years. Despite this he still kept on coming back to the table thinking something would change. That sooner or later my mother would realize all the work hes done for the family and she would realize the error of her ways. -snort- wishful thinking honestly.

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02-14-2018, 12:44 PM (This post was last modified: 02-14-2018 12:59 PM by DarthXedonias.)
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RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's 3.2 Journal- Chapter 1: The TID Chronicles
Well, thought I would report in since there have been 3 things that have happened so far, 2 of which have never happened ever.

The first is something that is similar to something someone else reported months ago. I think they said something about being on 3.1 and driving one night. They looked to the side while they were driving down the street and they saw a woman completely naked on her front porch. I didn't quite have it that extreme but I was driving to go take my IT certification test and I looked to the side and this woman was bending over in a dress and I could pretty much see everything. I have never, ever had this happen to me before in my entire life.Maybe a foreshadowing of things to come? eh, I'm inclined to think so based on the other thing that happened.

The next thing to happen was that some guy came up to our apartment with a Chinese order. My mother thought I had ordered it and I thought she had. The guy was in a hurry to just get his tip and leave. Once we found out neither of us ordered it my mom went running after the guy to tell him. Basically, we could have gotten a free meal, granted it would have probably hurt the guys standing at his job. Main thing is though is this has never happened either. I don't know, 2 things that have never happened before in my life and they so happen to happen in the week leading up to 3.2. Too much of a coincidence in my opinion.

The third thing is in regard to the porn/masturbation issue. After that first time ever of not watching any porn though I think masturbation was still an issue I gave in like I said in another post. The weird thing was it felt like I just went binge watching during that time for some for the next few days after that. I can't fathom why I had that response. Though suddenly, about 2-3 days ago I started getting that urge not to watch or masturbate, then of course the masturbate thing comes up again, then its not long after that the urge to watch porn again comes up. Usually at that point it likes there are 2 voices in my head fighting over what to do. Gave in again and then it was like I binged watch again for some odd reason. I think I am starting to figure out what is going on there and if I'm right I think when I start actually running 3.2 it should be solved. I think its a connection between 3 things.

I think what is happening is my mind is making me feel very much not like being around people at the moment (being very avoidant of people, even though when I go out there is no anxiety or anything). So I end up staying home like all day unless I really, really need to go out for something. Since I'm home and there is only so much to do then the temptation to masturbate comes up. once I give into that its not too long (maybe a day or 2 based on last time) before the urge to watch porn comes up. Once I give into that its like I go on some porn watching binge. I think I've heard of people with bulimia having similar responses, where they stay away from eating food or eating too much.. then before you know it they give in and they start gorging on food. They get sick, throw up and the cycle starts over again. I think this will fix itself when 3.2 comes out because I remember when I was running 3.1 I would go out a lot more often and not be at home as often as I am now. This whole thing kind of reminds me of when Shannon commented on my dream regarding food. Its like a part of my subconscious is casting the illusion (of danger) that I really don't want to go outside and unmotivate me from doing so but when I am forced to go outside its like I notice that it was nothing but an illusion because I feel no anxiety around people or fear for the most part. I think this will hopefully solve itself when I'm actually running the program.


-Edit- Almost completely forgot to mention something. About 3-5 days ago I kept on getting this feeling in my head that felt like reality bending for some reason except it was much stronger. I've had this feeling on "slightly" over the last few weeks but this time it was something major and somewhat annoying. I was laying down in my bed and it didn't matter if I was trying to fall asleep or not, it felt like I would slowly being falling into something then it was like I got jerked back in reality for lack of a better term. I noticed whenever this would happen I would see a lot more clearer and I would feel there was something different about my surroundings. I could be just laying there, trying to fall asleep, or somewhat day dream (which is becoming rarer these days) and it would still happen. Felt very familiar to how reality bending felt on 3.1 except on 3.1 I would just stop what I was doing and noticed what was happening. This one felt more powerful in that it felt like I was getting jerked back or my body got impacted somewhat by something. Not sure what that was all about but thought I would mention it.

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02-14-2018, 06:56 PM (This post was last modified: 02-14-2018 07:17 PM by DarthXedonias.)
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RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's 3.2 Journal- Chapter 1: The TID Chronicles
Oh totally forgot something really important that I've known for a while but keep on forgetting to put up. As you guys know I have been trying to move out for a while now but still have to wait a few more months until everything is set to go. Well, about 2 months ago my mother said she was planing on doing a trip in either January or February. When she mention this the first time I thought, "Hmm this is odd, I wonder if this is being set up possibly due to some TID effect from 3.2". Anyway, she recently reminded me and I'm pretty sure this confirms my suspicions. She said she was leaving this coming Wednesday and won't be back til the 2nd. So gone for like a week and 2 days. What really stood out to me though was that the day she leaves is the day exactly after Shannon is planning to release 3.2. This is way too much of a coincidence and it looks like things are setting themselves up so that logistics won't be a issue. Seeing as this is only the second time she has ever took a trip away and it just so happens to coincide the day after when 3.2 is suppose to launch seems too good to be true. Another thing that just happened today was I got a text from a girl I "used" to be interested in saying she changed her number. Eh, not as into this girl as I used to because before I think she tried to get me into the beta orbiter crap (which I admit at the time I somewhat fell partially for) but I do find it interesting that this is happening now of all things. Too many things happening this past week and in the upcoming week honestly (Well, saw the message today, it was actually sent Monday at 8pm. Don't know if that might coincide with scripting Shannon put in 3.2 that day).Something is at work here.

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Yesterday, 01:52 PM
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RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's 3.2 Journal- Chapter 1: The TID Chronicles
Only a few days til release but there has been some bad stuff come up.

I don't know what is going on but I'm starting to get the "fear" again. Last night I was on the internet again and thinking about the release of 3.2 and if I might achieve the goals of the program. Almost immediately I start getting this almost paralyzing fear again. It like this idea of, "I need to run something else, I don't think I should run this (3.2) for a while". I just sat still and tried to calm myself down and unlike last time this lasted for about 2 hours. I woke up today quite a bit better but I still feel this lingering fear and compulsion to run something else at times. I don't know what is going on with this. This is the 3rd time I have experienced something like this but its the strongest one yet. Just have to make sure I keep on track, wait til release, and not doing something stupid like running another sub (mainly it was pushing to run 3.1 even though I know for a fact that I have reverse resisted that to hell at this point).

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Yesterday, 01:59 PM
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RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's 3.2 Journal- Chapter 1: The TID Chronicles
(Yesterday 01:52 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote:  Only a few days til release but there has been some bad stuff come up.

I don't know what is going on but I'm starting to get the "fear" again. Last night I was on the internet again and thinking about the release of 3.2 and if I might achieve the goals of the program. Almost immediately I start getting this almost paralyzing fear again. It like this idea of, "I need to run something else, I don't think I should run this (3.2) for a while". I just sat still and tried to calm myself down and unlike last time this lasted for about 2 hours. I woke up today quite a bit better but I still feel this lingering fear and compulsion to run something else at times. I don't know what is going on with this. This is the 3rd time I have experienced something like this but its the strongest one yet. Just have to make sure I keep on track, wait til release, and not doing something stupid like running another sub (mainly it was pushing to run 3.1 even though I know for a fact that I have reverse resisted that to hell at this point).

This is why Shannon was determined to build "THE WALL" module!! You'll be fine once you start listening to 3.2!!
From what I understand, the wall will prevent you from "stopping & running" another subliminal title until you execute version 3.2!!

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