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My healing journey - Wim hof, Trauma Releasing exercises, Meditation & Running
02-02-2018, 12:14 PM (This post was last modified: 02-02-2018 12:15 PM by Greenduck.)
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RE: My healing journey - Wim hof, Trauma Releasing exercises, Meditation & Running
Happy friday folks! Hope you all have had a good week and can have some rewarding rest and recreation during the weekend. I have a chill friday where I am reading a book I got today, tomorrow I'm off doing some skiing in the morning and then meeting up some friends for dinner in the evening.

I am feeling stronger, and not only stronger, but like I have a strength where I didn't have anything before. So the increase is from 0, which make it pretty significant. I'm starting to feel a slight desire and confidence in pursuing goals again, which I haven't felt in a very long time. This is the inner fire that I have missed so much, and knew I always had, but lost contact with. It's my solar plexus chakra, it's my core power, it's ME who is finally coming back again and who I have missed so incredibly. It's all the hard work I have put into Wim-hof, doing cold-showers and meditating that made me get in touch with this side of myself again. Inner fire, here I come. I'm back. I'm f*cking back.

On another note (I still live with my parents). I'm tired of them, more than ever. They are two idealistic, complaining people who have communication problems between them. My dad is incapable of listening, and my mom is clinging for attention and get upset when people don't listen to her. Good combo? Don't think so. At the moment, this is the best solution, so I have decided to put up with it, its bearable. But hell of annoying from time to time. I have a hard time to just relax, things feels on edge around me for some reason. My parents feel on edge around me. Like they don't know who I am. But I am not acting out weird or whatever, I just keep to myself a bit, and need some space. You could phantom that your parents maybe would give you that? Well, in my case, they are to busy with themselves and their idealistic viewpoints of things, that they can't see the forest for their own got damn trees. They are missing their son in front of them. Whatever. It's their problem. But sometimes they make it my problem, and that stuff I don't like, and it's not OK. Whatever, I have my room and my privacy and that is all that matters right now. I don't have to worry about money, that is a good thing. I have a warm place to stay, electricity, a computer, clothes, hell I don't have anything to really complain about. I'm fine. But they are still uneasy people to live with. They are loud, almost screaming at each other, fighting over pitty things. It's like it's never "calm and familiar" at home and now I know it's not my skewed perspective that interfere with that observation, but it's really their dysfunctional relationship and lack of cooperation, listening and understanding that make the situation havoc from time to time and break that calm water that should be as a baseline in a family home.

Felt good to put this on paper. Hope you who read have a good weekend!

- "No problem can be solved by the same kind of thinking that created it." Albert Einstein
- "Don't cry to quit, cry to keep going" - Will Smith

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02-11-2018, 10:44 AM (This post was last modified: 02-11-2018 11:01 AM by Greenduck.)
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RE: My healing journey - Wim hof, Trauma Releasing exercises, Meditation & Running
I had some massive emotional release yesterday while driving in the car and listening to a song, I had to stop and cry for 10 minutes. Wow, it was really intense, like gasping-for-air crying and screaming and I felt totally empty for energy afterwards, a good feeling. I connected to myself in it.

Today I have felt lighter, having a easier time breathing in my meditation but I feel pretty "off" overall as I guess I am adjusting somewhat...

I also have felt sensations around my root chakra and I start to feel more "safe" in general in my surroundings, being able to relax, which have been impossible before. Also seen some improvement's in physical strength and ability to push myself when going out running.

Still have some problems with general confusion and irritability caused by other people.


I start to remember who I am, and who I have been. And how life should be. Other people didn't bother me. I had a plan, I had drive, I had ambition. Right now, the situation is different, people bother me, make me feel worried and their opinions are getting to much importance, but it's slowly changing back and I am getting back into the cockpit. People's opinions are their opinions, and if someone is really trying to put their opinion on you without your consent, it's probably not worth having. They only do it for their own sake, in a totally egoistical manner.

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- "Don't cry to quit, cry to keep going" - Will Smith

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02-12-2018, 01:39 PM
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RE: My healing journey - Wim hof, Trauma Releasing exercises, Meditation & Running
Just wanted to share something that made me a bit happy. At my local gym there is a dog that seems to be nervous and overall uncomfortable, withdrawn from people and often shaking. Earlier animals have seemed a bit withdrawn from me as I probably held some nervous energy which animals are pretty good at picking up, but today when I got into the gym and unloaded my stuff, the dog came up to me (it doesn't come up to other people from what I have seen) and seemed to feel safe around me, cuddled up at my leg and made himself comfortable. It made me happy and felt as some indication of my progress Smile

Overall a pretty good day today! Feeling stronger and more centered (you don't know how happy I am to be able to say this, to be "strong" or "centered" have been so far away from what I felt, that it almost seemed impossible to reach).

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