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08-19-2017, 01:40 PM
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RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
MLS is hitting me in weird ways. I find myself going into a trance like state, having either ideas for businesses where I'm visualising products in crazy detail, playing with their dimensions and properties and simulating using them all in my minds eye, or going into deep modes of thought about questions I have, coming out of them with blinding insights.

When this happens I come back feeling super spacey and detached from reality and it takes some exercise to ground myself again.

Im moving forward now with making one of the products just to see if it will work. In terms of the insights , MLS is teaching me the problem of optimisation with constraints. I'm a limited human, with a finite amount of resource and time, I've been trying to have everything (in my journals a recurrent theme has been my inability to choose what to focus on), MLS is helping me with a new framework for decision on this fundamental issue. I'm also learning to be truly independent of other people's judgment. It's developing still but the insight I've had on this is and its effects on my Social and work anxiety has been immense. It's a problem I've tried to deal with in AM6 which made me independent but hateful, in LTU which made me self validating and loving but impotent and unmotivated in action taking. MLS helps to make it so that when you have a problem you can take a step back and engage in a rational calculation to solve it.

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08-27-2017, 08:38 AM
Post: #162
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
I seem to be spending much of my time at the moment figuring out what my purpose in life is. I've been writing for days about my experiences, pretty much from birth and am seeing real patterns, related to my talents and the challenges and circumstances I keep repeating.

I think this is in relation to the calculation behind solving my anxiety and problems with dealing with the complexity of reality. I need a true north, a 'Why' should I, before a 'What' should I do, in order to find where the real value is in allocating the scarce resource of time and life i have before i die; and I suspect that the answer is in the behavioural and circumstantial patterns i see emerging when i review my life.

Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
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08-27-2017, 08:42 AM
Post: #163
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
(08-27-2017 08:38 AM)Darwin Wrote:  I seem to be spending much of my time at the moment figuring out what my purpose in life is. I've been writing for days about my experiences, pretty much from birth and am seeing real patterns, related to my talents and the challenges and circumstances I keep repeating.

I think this is in relation to the calculation behind solving my anxiety and problems with dealing with the complexity of reality. I need a true north, a 'Why' should I, before a 'What' should I do, in order to find where the real value is in allocating the scarce resource of time and life i have before i die; and I suspect that the answer is in the behavioural and circumstantial patterns i see emerging when i review my life.

I'm going through much of the same thoughts nowadays mate. Also on MLS. Would appreciate if you could elaborate on the behavioral and circumstantial patterns you see from your life.
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08-27-2017, 09:19 AM
Post: #164
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
What i've noted is that there are circumstances that have arisen periodically. I won't go into the esoteric side of my thinking about this, but on the more grounded side i suspect I've brought these about through my own unconscious trying to overcome a problem or perceived defect in myself, and until now I've continued to react in a way which has led to personal destruction and failure (the repeated behavioural patterns which have become the parts of my personality which let things down)

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08-27-2017, 10:18 AM
Post: #165
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
I'm going through the same thing. About 3/4 weeks ago I suddenly woke up at 3 AM. I didn't know what to do so I was browsing internet aiminglessly. I bumped into a really well-made article talking about repressed emotions and how they create destructive patterns. That was something I totally overlooked before. I managed to pin point 3 destructive patterns I keep manifesting into my life. The same scheme, again and again, periodically.
I seem to manifest broken people who in the end hurt me immensely and cause me to ease them out of my life, - cut ties totally. Now I don't even want to be friend with someone anymore...

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08-27-2017, 01:34 PM
Post: #166
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
(08-27-2017 10:18 AM)Plouf Wrote:  I'm going through the same thing. About 3/4 weeks ago I suddenly woke up at 3 AM. I didn't know what to do so I was browsing internet aiminglessly. I bumped into a really well-made article talking about repressed emotions and how they create destructive patterns. That was something I totally overlooked before. I managed to pin point 3 destructive patterns I keep manifesting into my life. The same scheme, again and again, periodically.
I seem to manifest broken people who in the end hurt me immensely and cause me to ease them out of my life, - cut ties totally. Now I don't even want to be friend with someone anymore...

I think you're missing the gold here Plouf. Your subconscious mind woke you up and led you there because you're now ready to work and heal this.

One of the things the subconscious mind does amazingly is keeping us safe. Especially from our traumas. Often it represses these memories and emotions and locks them away until we're ready to deal with them. The metaphorical basement of the mind.

You're being invited to heal and deal with this. That is great! Do what you need to do and you won't have to worry about manifesting the broken people anymore.
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08-27-2017, 01:48 PM
Post: #167
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
But seeing all these people still struggling after months and months of E2 is discouraging. The h/c seems to never end.
Right now I'm enjoying APE. It makes me feel good and that's a sweet spot for my well being.
Yeah I will run E2 eventually, but I don't feel ready for it now.

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08-27-2017, 04:21 PM
Post: #168
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
(08-27-2017 01:48 PM)Plouf Wrote:  But seeing all these people still struggling after months and months of E2 is discouraging. The h/c seems to never end.
Right now I'm enjoying APE. It makes me feel good and that's a sweet spot for my well being.
Yeah I will run E2 eventually, but I don't feel ready for it now.

Lol E2 isn't the only way to clear stuff out like that. Theres other more focused ways.

Keep in mind that whatever we hold on to subconsciously not only effects our lives but that of our children too. Children learn by observing their parents in their formative years.

Your energy, subconscious strategies for life, social skills and even pain (mental and emotional traumas) get taken on by the child. It's therefore in our best interest to clear not only for ourselves but also our future children should anyone here be inclined to have any.

Best of luck on your journey
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09-04-2017, 04:56 AM
Post: #169
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
Chaos is gone, tis truly a shame. I respect the admins and acknowledge that there was probably a lot going on behind the scenes, and I know Chaos simply would do almost anything to not feel like he'd lost or feel 'made to back down'. Still a valuable contributor in many ways and he will be missed; I think it falls upon the rest of us to make some more effort in keeping the life in this forum.

So this is the recent thing I've been brought to by MLS. I've done a lot of pondering over the common thread that links all the underachievement in my life, and have boiled it down to two issues. I'm in the middle of some work now so will go into it more later.

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10-26-2017, 01:27 AM
Post: #170
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
So I haven't posted in a long time. I just haven't had any need or desire - I've watched the forum wars with mild concern, but largely have not cared at all. The main focus for me has been cultivating the basis for having a good functional mind and life, as well as 'learning' how to think which I didn't realise that I didn't know how to do before. After I got rejected from a first job interview I absolutely SMASHED my next and now am in a new job for more money and which is more interesting. My ability to dissect what went wrong and be clear headed enough to formulate a better approach meant I approached the interview better than any time before.

This capacity to formulate new patterns is proving invaluable and gives me hope that I can choose anything now, visualise how to do it and do the shit out of it. The speed isn't there though, it's slow work formulating these new patterns but now I have the resilience to do it.

I have to say I disagree with the sentiment I've come across about how this forum is somehow diminished - far from it I'm seeing people who looked repetitive and stagnant posting with an entirely new energy and life. The evolution continues.

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10-26-2017, 07:43 AM
Post: #171
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
Keep Going buddy. I know people on MLS-5.5G are too busy improving their mind and life to visit this forum. Still keep us updated monthly.

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11-16-2017, 05:39 AM
Post: #172
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
I've lost track of where I am in terms of how long I've been on this Sub. If there have been changes since I last used it then they are subtle or naturalised to the point where I can't notice. Some tangibles to note though.

Meeting anxiety, and generally anxiety about interacting with people I previously deemed intimidating has diminished to near zero.

My focus and concentration is still pretty low. I've been doing Dual N-Back training recently which seems to be helping, though it has woken me up to how under developed some of my brain function is, particularly with working memory. I'm going to continue doing this training but it really feels like chewing glass. I can't actually get passed N=4 (which should indicate the level of retarded i'm currently at).

I've lost about 16 lbs and gone from being very overweight to average in about 4 weeks - this is purely through reforming my diet, I was having ridiculous amounts of white carbs and high sugar processed food, losing weight has just been a function of having a normal, not shit bag diet. The next stage will be to bring in regular gym training to build up muscle and increase my basal metabolic rate. I am not over extending myself at all. Very much in it for the long haul, so no going ape with trying to have all the results in the world yesterday in order to feel like I'm 'ok'

Finances are better than ever, I've stopped spending on BS and begun putting aside around 70% of my monthly income - I'm developing a simple savings strategy through low cost funds to ensure that - if I don't make millions as an entrepreneur - I at least don't shoot myself in the balls with poor money management.

I'm continuing this sub indefinitely, but at some point I need to have a break and get a booster shot on the presence via either the AM6 refresher or DMSI 3.2 when it's out.

I've become better at being honest and expressing my feelings, having difficult adult conversations with people I love, and people who have crossed the line with me, taking more and more responsibility for how my relationships show up. Recently had a problem with someone I was managing/coaching - had a total attitude problem. My normal approach would be to either switch off because 'there's nothing you can do with people like that', but this time I pushed and constructively challenged, remaining neutral and keeping to principles over emotion; the result was they totally apologised (after first arguing and then walking away) and admitted that their behaviour had been a pattern that had gone on through out their whole lives - they thanked me for the challenge and said they needed it!.

Hmm, maybe that's more than I thought.

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11-16-2017, 07:48 AM
Post: #173
RE: LTU>DMSI>MLS 5.5g BABY!
Being Honest and Principles over emotions stuff even happened to me. I am kinda surprised when I see people accept their mistakes and listen to my advice. I knew it was MLS-5.5G but never bothered much about it.

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