HMoody's 2011 Alpha Male Journal

[HMoody]

Hi Everyone,

I thought I would start a Journal to describe my experiences with Alpha Male 2011. It will be my first time going thru the program. I'm excited about the changes this will make in my life.

Thanks,
HMoody

[smash]

yeah, you start nearly at the same moment, I am starting. I also can´t wait for the positive changes, I am getting! :-)

[HMoody]

(01-05-2012 02:25 PM)smash Wrote:  yeah, you start nearly at the same moment, I am starting. I also can´t wait for the positive changes, I am getting! :-)

Hey Smash,

I'm about 3 days in at this point. It's good to have someone else going thru it at the same time! It will be interesting to compare notes and see how we progress.

HMoody

[HMoody]

Day 3:

I've been listening to AM 2011 for about 3 days now. I set the masked version (ocean waves) to loop on my laptop during the night and listen to the ultrasonic version for a few hours during the day as well. I've been feeling a bit more tired since I started listening and at the same time more fidgety. I can't seem to sit still for more than an hour at times. I've been having some pretty intense dreams the past couple of nights. The first night, I dreamed that I was trying to do two jobs at once at the same time...Like I was trying to be two people at once and it just wasn't working...

The Funny thing is that I typically don't remember my dreams..but I've been having some intense ones since I started. Confidence was pretty high in the morning..I was finding that I was able to interact with coworkers more easily..until about 3-4 hours in when I started to feel more self conscious..one of my big concerns is that I feel Like I don't speak loud enough or confidently enough in certain situations and it seems to come and go. I'm hoping AM will help me to be more relaxed and confident in every situation.

[Spiral]

Don't worry. It will.

[HMoody]

@ Smash - Thanks for the encouragement. Excited to see that happen!

Stage 1 - Day 4

Still feeling a bit tired but that may have been because of the travelling I did today. Waking up at 3 Am to catch a flight might have had something to do with that.

I'm starting to notice that women are catching my eye more and vice versa. Today at the airport I noticed that 2 types of responses to my eye contact..it would either be a big smile followed by a lowering of the eyes while still maintaining a small secret smile or an intense look and then difficulty meeting my gaze again. Not sure if that is the sub at work or just typically different responses from ppl at an airport.

Another thing I'm noticing is that some things that I needed to do for work were making me nervous as I've never done them before..but now I seem to be a bit more comfortable doing them and my thoughts are that I will do them as best as I can and see if changes need to be made after review. Typically I would obsess over whether I have done it right the first time even though it does not show outwardly.

Let's see what happens as I continue over the next couple of days. I wonder if anyone has an answer to this question: I'm flying a lot for work and hence wanted to use that time effectively for the subs and I'm wondering would the ultrasonic still be effective set at a volume 25% below the max on my iPod even with all the air pressure and engine noise etc?

Thanks,
HMoody

[HMoody]

One other question for you guys or Shannon. Is it ok to use the 4g version of ASC.along with AM 2011 or would it be too much?

[HMoody]

Stage 1: Day 5

Filled with frenetic energy upon waking up. This lasted about half the day until I went shopping at Target for a few things. Didn't really notice anything different about people's reactions to me today though at one point yesterday my Dad and brother were arguing about something and I just put a stop to it. Most days I would let them hash it out and if it got to be too much then I would step in. Today I didn't even wait..soon as I knew they were starting I put a stop to it. That is a bit unusual.

After getting back from shopping I felt totally drained and just felt like sleeping..no motivation to do anything...very different from the morning where I felt impatient to get everything done. For some reason the back of my head hurt a bit too until I took a nap..almost like a type of pressure. I think that was about it today.

[Shannon]

(01-06-2012 05:42 PM)HMoody Wrote:  One other question for you guys or Shannon. Is it ok to use the 4g version of ASC.along with AM 2011 or would it be too much?

ASC is in AM2011. Adding it in on top is probably going overboard, especially considering that ASC.by itself is too much if you use it for more than 32 days without a break... that said, some of the guys have used it successfully as a supplement when they needed a boost on a difficult stage.

[HMoody]

(01-08-2012 06:59 PM)Shannon Wrote:  

(01-06-2012 05:42 PM)HMoody Wrote:  One other question for you guys or Shannon. Is it ok to use the 4g version of ASC.along with AM 2011 or would it be too much?

ASC is in AM2011. Adding it in on top is probably going overboard, especially considering that ASC.by itself is too much if you use it for more than 32 days without a break... that said, some of the guys have used it successfully as a supplement when they needed a boost on a difficult stage.

I did not know that ASC.was already included in AM2011. That is good to know. If it starts getting really rough I might use it here and there as needed. Thank you.

[HMoody]

Stage 1 Day 6

I do find myself thinking a bit differently. I've been devouring the books that Shannon recommends in the directions for AM2011 and they are eye openers in a lot of ways. I remember talking to one of my female friends right after a really really bad breakup and she told me that if a woman considers a man a long term prospect they will withold sex but if not then they are liable to sleep with him right away if they re into him. That just boggled my brain at the time. I talked about it with a buddy of mine and he was shocked as well. Female logic at its finest.

I've been flirting with a girl over email and today she was like "let's just talk over the phone as she feels its just better." Normally I would go right along with it...but today I was like...I'll do it when I felt comfortable..not when she asks for it. I told her we would eventually but I'd like to get to know her a bit better. It definitely felt empowering to place myself first. I used to just drop everything if a girl I was interested in wanted to do something. It took having my heart broken to realize that I don't ever want to give up my power like that again. I realize that the few times when I had great success with women was when I truly did not give a S*** about what may or may not happen.

[smash]

great to read, that AM kicks in. I am really excited for next session tonight! ;-)

[Shannon]

(01-08-2012 08:16 PM)HMoody Wrote:  Stage 1 Day 6

I do find myself thinking a bit differently. I've been devouring the books that Shannon recommends in the directions for AM2011 and they are eye openers in a lot of ways. I remember talking to one of my female friends right after a really really bad breakup and she told me that if a woman considers a man a long term prospect they will withold sex but if not then they are liable to sleep with him right away if they re into him. That just boggled my brain at the time. I talked about it with a buddy of mine and he was shocked as well. Female logic at its finest.

Actually, this bit of female logic actually works more often than not, which is why she does it. A man has two modes. Sex, and feelings. Mode 1 (Sex) is on all the time. Mode 2 is harder for men, for various reasons. By withholding sex, she is forcing him to feel something besides sexually, and this triggers him also to respect her more and consider her harder to get, and thus more of a prize when he does get her. It is her way of getting you to believe that she's hard for every man - except you. It's a way of making you perceive her as high value. It's how she gets what she wants - a long term relationship - instead of just handing you sex and allowing it to be perceived as low value, along with herself.

If she's doing this, it's because SHE perceives YOU as being high value, and she wants to keep you. It's actually a very high compliment from her, if you think about it.

[HMoody]

(01-09-2012 12:13 PM)Shannon Wrote:  

(01-08-2012 08:16 PM)HMoody Wrote:  Stage 1 Day 6

I do find myself thinking a bit differently. I've been devouring the books that Shannon recommends in the directions for AM2011 and they are eye openers in a lot of ways. I remember talking to one of my female friends right after a really really bad breakup and she told me that if a woman considers a man a long term prospect they will withold sex but if not then they are liable to sleep with him right away if they re into him. That just boggled my brain at the time. I talked about it with a buddy of mine and he was shocked as well. Female logic at its finest.

Actually, this bit of female logic actually works more often than not, which is why she does it. A man has two modes. Sex, and feelings. Mode 1 (Sex) is on all the time. Mode 2 is harder for men, for various reasons. By withholding sex, she is forcing him to feel something besides sexually, and this triggers him also to respect her more and consider her harder to get, and thus more of a prize when he does get her. It is her way of getting you to believe that she's hard for every man - except you. It's a way of making you perceive her as high value. It's how she gets what she wants - a long term relationship - instead of just handing you sex and allowing it to be perceived as low value, along with herself.

If she's doing this, it's because SHE perceives YOU as being high value, and she wants to keep you. It's actually a very high compliment from her, if you think about it.

That is an interesting way to look at it. This differs somewhat from what I read in DYD and in How to become an Alpha Male as it can also be a symptom of the nice guy syndrome. I get the logic of it from the female perspective and it is an interesting reframe but still caught me by surprise as I used to think that the same women wouldn't possibly have a one-night stand with a guy they knew would not work out while making the guy they really want work/wait for it. obviously my thinking in that area was very naive. That and the fact that females respond more to emotion than logic and that female logic is quite different to male logic.

Why do you say that mode 2 is harder for men? Is that due to our wiring? I know that most guys can get turned on without involving too many emotions but sex is far more enjoyable when you do have at least some feelings for the other person. At least that has been my experience.

[Shannon]

(01-09-2012 09:53 PM)HMoody Wrote:  

(01-09-2012 12:13 PM)Shannon Wrote:  

(01-08-2012 08:16 PM)HMoody Wrote:  Stage 1 Day 6

I do find myself thinking a bit differently. I've been devouring the books that Shannon recommends in the directions for AM2011 and they are eye openers in a lot of ways. I remember talking to one of my female friends right after a really really bad breakup and she told me that if a woman considers a man a long term prospect they will withold sex but if not then they are liable to sleep with him right away if they re into him. That just boggled my brain at the time. I talked about it with a buddy of mine and he was shocked as well. Female logic at its finest.

Actually, this bit of female logic actually works more often than not, which is why she does it. A man has two modes. Sex, and feelings. Mode 1 (Sex) is on all the time. Mode 2 is harder for men, for various reasons. By withholding sex, she is forcing him to feel something besides sexually, and this triggers him also to respect her more and consider her harder to get, and thus more of a prize when he does get her. It is her way of getting you to believe that she's hard for every man - except you. It's a way of making you perceive her as high value. It's how she gets what she wants - a long term relationship - instead of just handing you sex and allowing it to be perceived as low value, along with herself.

If she's doing this, it's because SHE perceives YOU as being high value, and she wants to keep you. It's actually a very high compliment from her, if you think about it.

That is an interesting way to look at it. This differs somewhat from what I read in DYD and in How to become an Alpha Male as it can also be a symptom of the nice guy syndrome. I get the logic of it from the female perspective and it is an interesting reframe but still caught me by surprise as I used to think that the same women wouldn't possibly have a one-night stand with a guy they knew would not work out while making the guy they really want work/wait for it. obviously my thinking in that area was very naive. That and the fact that females respond more to emotion than logic and that female logic is quite different to male logic.

Why do you say that mode 2 is harder for men? Is that due to our wiring? I know that most guys can get turned on without involving too many emotions but sex is far more enjoyable when you do have at least some feelings for the other person. At least that has been my experience.

To be sure, there are other situations in which this can be the case also, as stated in DYD and HTBAAM.

What seems like "logic" to an emotionally based thinker is not going to be the logic that you use in scientific or mathematical terms, which would be genuine logic. It may make sense to the person employing it, but it's not necessarily logical. Two of my exes were like that; I have met men like that as well. It's not just women, and not all women are guilty of irrational thinking or "chick logic" as it were.

Mode 1 is the animal response. Mode 2 is the response from the emotional side, which men in most societies these days are taught to hide, avoid, minimize, disconnect from, ignore, reject, etc. You find that men who can employ Mode 2 are usually those who are more mature, which is usually middle aged and older guys.

[HMoody]

Stage 1: Day 8

I noticed that I'm more relaxed in general and confident. This seems to come and go at times but the times when it's there my voice is louder and my body is relaxed. My Walk seems to be a bit different as well though I can't quite place my finger on what is different yet. I seem to be holding myself straighter. Motivation seems to be a bit down in some areas. Need to push myself a bit at work to get some things done.

A couple of interesting things happened when I was flying two days ago. On one portion of the flight, the guy next to me all of sudden took my bag down from the overhead bin and set it out for me. I'd had a bit of conversation with him but that was unexpected behavior. In all my time flying, that's never happened. On the next connection, another guy offered to put my bag up for me as I looking for a place to put it. Though this might have been just because the plane was getting busy and he was just being helpful. Keep in mind that these were not the flight crew but just regular guys. The fact that it happened twice makes think the sub may have had something to do with it.

I'm able to hold eye contact with people for longer in a relaxed manner. When women catch my eye they either smile or just stare at times. Not sure what the stare implies..any one have this happen? No smile..just a stare.

Shannon - does it matter if you switch between the masked version and the Ultrasonic for the same program?

[smash]

I am going through pretty similar things like you. Have to motivate myself due to this times more than normal, too. Especially when it concerns my business, I´d prefer to chill in bed all day, get up and just enjoy life to its fullest (going out and drinking with some girls).

[Shannon]

(01-10-2012 10:31 PM)HMoody Wrote:  Stage 1: Day 8

I noticed that I'm more relaxed in general and confident. This seems to come and go at times but the times when it's there my voice is louder and my body is relaxed. My Walk seems to be a bit different as well though I can't quite place my finger on what is different yet. I seem to be holding myself straighter. Motivation seems to be a bit down in some areas. Need to push myself a bit at work to get some things done.

A couple of interesting things happened when I was flying two days ago. On one portion of the flight, the guy next to me all of sudden took my bag down from the overhead bin and set it out for me. I'd had a bit of conversation with him but that was unexpected behavior. In all my time flying, that's never happened. On the next connection, another guy offered to put my bag up for me as I looking for a place to put it. Though this might have been just because the plane was getting busy and he was just being helpful. Keep in mind that these were not the flight crew but just regular guys. The fact that it happened twice makes think the sub may have had something to do with it.

I'm able to hold eye contact with people for longer in a relaxed manner. When women catch my eye they either smile or just stare at times. Not sure what the stare implies..any one have this happen? No smile..just a stare.

Shannon - does it matter if you switch between the masked version and the Ultrasonic for the same program?

Body language alone says a lot about a man. But the results of AM show up in a lot of ways: body language, vocal projection and volume, choice of words, choice of actions, movement speed, eye contact, facial expression, vocal inflection, and a lot more, and it's almost all going on without you noticing a thing consciously. So you're noticing some changes in yourself (posture, etc.) but not all of them, and the people around you see these things and respond accordingly, which you DO notice because it is significantly different than you have a record of seeing in the past. You'll see more of it.

When a woman stares at you that way, it's usually either that she's interested or feeling threatened, or both. I notice that a lot of times if I "read" their faces when they do this, it's a combination. They have noticed me, and their "alpha radar" is going off, but they may not necessarily be self confident or comfortable enough with themselves to act on it. In the case of someone who is just starting the program, it often includes yet another category, which is they have sensed something interesting/threatening, but it's not giving consistent signals, or it's not giving a full set of alpha signals. Less interesting because it's not giving a standard set of signals, but still tripping the detectors, so to speak.

All three tracks in a particular stage are exactly the same scripting, with a different form of presentation. You can switch between them all day long if you like.

[HMoody]

(01-11-2012 08:54 AM)Shannon Wrote:  

(01-10-2012 10:31 PM)HMoody Wrote:  Stage 1: Day 8

I noticed that I'm more relaxed in general and confident. This seems to come and go at times but the times when it's there my voice is louder and my body is relaxed. My Walk seems to be a bit different as well though I can't quite place my finger on what is different yet. I seem to be holding myself straighter. Motivation seems to be a bit down in some areas. Need to push myself a bit at work to get some things done.

A couple of interesting things happened when I was flying two days ago. On one portion of the flight, the guy next to me all of sudden took my bag down from the overhead bin and set it out for me. I'd had a bit of conversation with him but that was unexpected behavior. In all my time flying, that's never happened. On the next connection, another guy offered to put my bag up for me as I looking for a place to put it. Though this might have been just because the plane was getting busy and he was just being helpful. Keep in mind that these were not the flight crew but just regular guys. The fact that it happened twice makes think the sub may have had something to do with it.

I'm able to hold eye contact with people for longer in a relaxed manner. When women catch my eye they either smile or just stare at times. Not sure what the stare implies..any one have this happen? No smile..just a stare.

Shannon - does it matter if you switch between the masked version and the Ultrasonic for the same program?

Body language alone says a lot about a man. But the results of AM show up in a lot of ways: body language, vocal projection and volume, choice of words, choice of actions, movement speed, eye contact, facial expression, vocal inflection, and a lot more, and it's almost all going on without you noticing a thing consciously. So you're noticing some changes in yourself (posture, etc.) but not all of them, and the people around you see these things and respond accordingly, which you DO notice because it is significantly different than you have a record of seeing in the past. You'll see more of it.

When a woman stares at you that way, it's usually either that she's interested or feeling threatened, or both. I notice that a lot of times if I "read" their faces when they do this, it's a combination. They have noticed me, and their "alpha radar" is going off, but they may not necessarily be self confident or comfortable enough with themselves to act on it. In the case of someone who is just starting the program, it often includes yet another category, which is they have sensed something interesting/threatening, but it's not giving consistent signals, or it's not giving a full set of alpha signals. Less interesting because it's not giving a standard set of signals, but still tripping the detectors, so to speak.

All three tracks in a particular stage are exactly the same scripting, with a different form of presentation. You can switch between them all day long if you like.

Hmm..I'm thinking it may be because of the fact that I've just started it. Mixed signals as you are saying though it well could be attraction as well. Let's see what happens as it gets more concrete over the next few months. Cool, I'm glad I can switch between the tracks as that is what I have been doing as some are more appropriate than others. Thank you for the clarification.

[HMoody]

Stage 1: Day 11

It's been an interesting couple of days. I feel more exhausted on the one hand but I seem to be getting a lot more respect at work in general. I seem to be speaking in a more powerful manner and feel more comfortable around my new team.

I went out to lunch on Thursday with my boss, his boss and a coworker. I felt a lot more comfortable around them and could converse quite easily. In Past situations I would typically feel more nervous especially as I do not know them that well. At the end of the lunch, the waitress brought our check and the funny thing was that she brought the entire check right to me as if assuming that I was in charge. It's funny because both of my bosses are quite senior to me and that usually does not happen. Must be some unconscious signals being sent out.

I notice that I'm also a lot more comfortable pausing when I don't feel like talking. Typically if there are ppl around I feel like I have to talk to them the entire time unless I know them really well. Just being silent in company has been a struggle. This week, it was like if I don't feel like talking than it's perfectly okay.

I notice that at least some women seem to notice my presence a bit more though it's hard to quantify. It typically happens when I speak to them. I'll get to be a bit more social this weekend so it will be interesting to see the responses from ppl. I'm trying to make sure I get in at least 8 hours consistently.