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Alteration -- Kalmah0804's Emotional Healing & Others Journal (AM6.0 Third Run)
11-07-2014, 06:48 AM
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Well argumented change of sub. I wish you best results and I'll be reading your journal closely as I'll be switching to AM somewhere in December. I hope you'll set me a good example Smile

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11-11-2014, 12:06 AM (This post was last modified: 11-11-2014 12:07 AM by Shannon.)
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(11-07-2014 06:22 AM)kalmah0804 Wrote:  Day 80

So after a lot of thinking about where I'm at in my life right now and how much I've grown since starting to use EPHRA almost 3 months ago, I decided yesterday that I'm going to start using my Alpha Male sub. I know that the first stage is supposed to have some EPHRA in it, as well, so right now I'm at a point in my life where I can make a perfect transition but still get a little bit of EPHRA in me for the next few weeks.

I feel a lot more assured in myself, especially in social situations, which normally would give me way too many nerves to function effectively. I've grieved a lot more normally over the death of my father, and I think/dream about him less and less every day. I used to hold a lot of blame for both my mother and my father, for the way they raised me, which turned me into this anti-social creep, but I've realized now that they just did the best they could, and really actually mostly did a great job, but that I was severely bullied all of the time because of my Tourette Syndrome and that there's nobody to blame for my lack of social success except myself.

I've slowly learned to love and appreciate myself for who I am and accept me for me in any given circumstance.

However, I'm sick of the world not knowing how great I am, and I'm going to do everything in my power to change that, starting with the Alpha Male set. It's about time that I take my raw talent, smarts and charisma and start unlocking their capabilities to be used to dominate a room when I walk into it, or feel unlimited ambition and confidence to accomplish whatever tasks I have set before me.

I started running Stage 1 last night and felt really great.

My question, though, is this:

On 5th generation subliminals, the directions say you can use them from anywhere of 8-21 hours. I usually ran my 5G sub anywhere from 14-18 hours a day and felt like I got a lot of success from that much time dedicated to listening.

But upon reading both the 4G AM directions, as well as just the general 4G sub directions, it says that I shouldn't exceed my exposure for anything more than 12 hours a day.

Now, my question is, are those outdated/incorrect insructions? If I listened to my AM subs for 14-18 hours a day, or even 14-16 hours a day, would that be too much?

The instructions for 4G programs were determined through time to be less than optimal usage times. The 5G instructions are correct for 5G programs. For 4G programs, usage time should be 12 hours a day minimum, up to 23 maximum for best results.

EHPRA is in every stage of AM6, btw.

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11-11-2014, 06:55 AM
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Thanks for the response, Shannon. I wish I had money right now, otherwise I would definitely upgrade to am6 right away. Sadly, I'm a college student in a ton of debt with seemingly all of the weight of the world on his shoulders right now.

I'll update this thread tonight with my thoughts and feelings so far on the transition from eprha to am5. All good stuff so far, though.

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11-19-2014, 07:07 AM
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Day 13/Day 92

Sorry it's taken me so long to post an update. I've been a bit busy/distracted.

So above I've changed the time stamp. The first date provided is the amount of Days I've been running AM5 for. The second date provided is the total amount of Days that have passed since I started to begin my transformation through subliminals.

As I think I might have mentioned once or twice before, I ran AM5 many, many months ago and it tore me apart. It made me so ridiculously filled with anger and frustration, for other people, for myself, that I had to pull the plug ASAP. As soon as I did, I found myself feeling a lot better.

Shannon, as well as some other people, recommended that I try running EPRHA for 90 days or so to heal any subconscious emotional wounds I might have been holding onto for all of these years, and then to try running AM5 again.

Now, when I first ran AM5, I felt basically no difference or improvements in my life whatsoever until about Stage 3 or 4, and even these were so shortlived before my anger took over that there was barely any benefit I gained from running AM5 the first time at all.

Now, however, after having run EPRHA for 90 days, I can say that it was definitely the right call.

I feel absolutely euphoric. I feel totally re-assured, calm, accepting, and totally relaxed almost all of the time. Within only a day or two of running the first stage of this program I noticed a huge amount of girls checking me out when I was walking by myself in the city. I don't necessarily feel "alpha" or "dominant" yet in social scenarios, but I feel more relaxed within myself than I've ever felt before.

More importantly, I've been noticing that after running EPRHA for 90 days, and now running Stage 1 of AM5, I've actually been able to let go of a lot of the emotional baggage that EPRHA had been bringing up to the surface for me.

For instance, my two best friends who moved together to LA and basically stopped talking to me or hanging out with me on Skype. For the longest time I was resentful towards them and angry at them for abandoning me like that, especially in my time of need, when I was already so lonely and so depressed from the death of my father and the early-graduation of my friends. But now, when I started running Stage 1 of AM5 for the first couple of days, I realized that, no, they haven't abandoned me, they're not moving on without me, and that they're still my two best friends, no matter what. And even more importantly, they're living in a wonderful city and should be having the time of their lives, whether or not I'm there, and that I can't hold a grudge against them for having fun without me.

Little things like that have popped up for me during the first stage of AM5. Little things where I've started to accept my situation that I've put myself into, and no longer feel sad or helpless about it, but calmly accept it, move on, and look forward to the future when I can go join my friends and start moving on with my life.

So yeah, Stage 1 so far has been absolutely excellent. No negative side effects really whatsoever. Only wonderful things to say about AM5 so far. The EPRHA for 90 days before hand did amazing things for me, though. I most definitely didn't feel anything at all like this the first time I ran AM5 without it. Great recommendation, folks!

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11-23-2014, 12:36 PM (This post was last modified: 11-23-2014 12:37 PM by kalmah0804.)
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Day 17/Day 96

So it's been I guess sort of a more mixed past few days for me. A couple of days ago when I was in the city I was noticing that my nervousness and second-guessing-attitude was coming back, especially around girls I liked (or thought that a romantic venture was possible in). I didn't know what was wrong until I re-read Shannon's post about 4G listening. I had only been listening to the sub overnight while I slept, but lately I haven't been sleeping too greatly, some nights I've only been getting like 6 or 7 hours.

Over this weekend I've been listening to the sub for 18-21 hours a day and I've definitely been feeling a lot better about myself. So hopefully I can continue to listen more than 12 hours a day and get slightly better results than I had been experiencing the past 4 or 5 days.

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12-05-2014, 09:05 AM
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Sorry for not posting in such a long time. I'm having some real trouble figuring out how to best play my subliminals.

I have two cheap blue-tooth speakers that I can use to play the Subliminals. I know they pass the frequency test, but I have no idea if they are Mono only, or if they support Stereo, too.

My phone has stereo speakers, but when I play ultrasonic subs on my phone's speakers at the highest volume, I hear cracking and popping sounds.

When I started running AM a few weeks ago, I decided to run it on my phone's speakers, because I thought that my bluetooth speakers were being limited by bluetooth compression and possibly also because they might not have supported Stereo to begin with.

Now I'm not even sure if I made the right choice by switching to my phone's speakers for AM. I really don't know what to do.

About a week and a half ago I stopped running AM because I felt like I was no longer getting any results. I started getting very shaky and nervous and panicky around girls again, and I thought that maybe I should re-start EPRHA again.

After running EPRHA from my phone's speakers for about a week, I decided that EPRHA wasn't improving me at all and I re-started AM Phase 1.

Now I'm just really confused on which speaker systems I should be running my subs on.

For the record, here are the two speakers that I have access to:

http://www.amazon.com/Damson-Audio-Bluet...mson+twist

and

http://www.amazon.com/Roker%C2%AESound-S...sound+cube

I connect to both of these through my phone's bluetooth function, since I use my phone as my MP3 player and load all of my subs onto my phone.

What should I do here? I obviously have to re-start AM from scratch, but I'm lost as to which speaker setup I should be using.

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12-07-2014, 08:59 AM
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So after doing some further research, I found out that the bluetooth speaker that I had been using for most of my listening (which was mostly done in my sleep overnight) is a Mono speaker only, so in reality, for the 80 something days that I had been listening to EPRHA, only 3 or 4 hours per day had been on a Stereo speaker.

With that in mind, I've decided to start over again. I purchased another Bluetooth stereo speaker over amazon and it arrived late last night, and I've just started to use it today. So far, using the ultrasonic EPRHA sub on it, I feel pretty good, and can definitely feel its impact on me already.

My plan is to run another 96 days of EPRHA, then run 96 days of ASC, then run through the course of AM5, and finish that up with my Attract Beautiful Women sub for 96 days.

Sorry for the confusion, and thanks for following!

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12-09-2014, 01:57 AM
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Does it have to use Bluetooth? Can you connect a cable from your phone to the speaker? That bypasses any compression issues.
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12-09-2014, 08:47 AM
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(12-09-2014 01:57 AM)swisston Wrote:  Does it have to use Bluetooth? Can you connect a cable from your phone to the speaker? That bypasses any compression issues.

My room has too little table space and room for me to connect anything with a wire to my speakers. When I'm awake during the day, that's fine, but I get most of my exposure in my bedroom during sleep, and then, I can only either play the sub out of my phone's stereo speakers right next to my head, or across the room on my bluetooth speakers through a very questionable bluetooth connection that constantly disconnects in the middle of the night.

So far I've just been playing the subs out of my phone's stereo speakers and lately I've actually been feeling great. I think the EPRHA sub is having much more of an effect on me through my phone's stereo speakers than it ever did through my old bluetooth mono speakers. I'm glad I'm choosing to restart my EPRHA before moving on to the actual subs that can help me.

Hopefully the stereo speakers on my phone being right next to me at all times is good enough. It certainly feels more than good enough so far.

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02-04-2015, 08:16 AM
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Sorry for not posting in so long. I've been super busy these past few weeks.

About 45 days ago, I started running Absolute Self Confidence for myself and noted immediate incredible results. After about 2 or 3 weeks running the sub, I noticed a deep sense of self-reassuredness, pride in myself, my work, and my life accomplishments. I noticed that I was standing taller, and everyone who I knew also noted that I seemed to be "taller". I had about 8 people ask me if I had actually grown another inch, and when I told them no, they seemed very impressed.

I noticed that when I made eye contact with a cute girl, I could feel relaxed and smile, and even actually flirt with her a little. I felt calm and relaxed in all social situations, no matter how stressful or awkward.

When I looked at myself in the mirror, or looked at pictures of myself, I actually realized, for the first time in my life, that I was actually a pretty good looking dude. I had always told myself when I looked at myself that I was good looking, but deep down, I never really believed it I guess. When I was in the first stages of running ASC, I actually believed that I was a good looking dude. I felt supremely confident, self-assured, and relaxed in all situations whatsoever.

But for the past few days, I've suddenly regressed hard and fast, and I don't know what to do. I'm pretty much back to where I started. I'm anxious and nervous at all times of the day no matter where I am or who I'm with. I feel constant doubt and am constantly berating myself. When I look at myself in a mirror, I feel that doubt and lack of self-appreciation that I've always been plagued by. When I make eye contact with anybody, regardless of whether it's a friend who I've known for years, a cute girl I'm walking by on the sidewalk, or just some random guy on a train or subway, I IMMEDIATELY feel a surge of nervous panic and look away, usually down at the ground, until I feel the person isn't making eye contact anymore and I feel safe to look back up.

I don't know what to do about this sudden deep regression. I don't know what caused it, what I can do to change it, or what it means for my progression with this subliminal in the future.

What should I do?

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02-04-2015, 11:16 AM
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Do EPHRA for a few months then go back to ASC and see the results

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03-05-2015, 09:05 AM
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So I've pretty much wasted the past several months trying to find the right subliminal for me to use next. I started this journal running approximately 85-90 days of EPRHA for around 16-21 hours a day with wonderful results. Then, I stopped posting as I tried to run ASC for at least 96 days, preferably closer to 196 days, but after experiencing UNBELIEVABLY FANTASTIC results after about 50 days of use, I just randomly decided to give up and try running IABW sub.

Ever since then I've been constantly flipping between various subs, unable to stick with a single one for a few days, which is terrible. I've realized that without writing an updating a journal, I don't have the follow-through to stick with a singular sub for a prolonged period of time. I always randomly change my mind and decide I need more of something else.

So I'd like to start posting a journal entry of my experiences using subs in this thread again. My plan, overall, is to run ASC for roughly 6 months to create an incredible rock-hard foundation of confidence. After all, most of the problems in my life were stitched up with EPRHA, but now, I'd like to fully finish closing the wounds. Most of the problems in my life right now are due to a deeply-instilled self-depreciating behavior. First my mother and father, also from my former teachers and former classmates/pupils in my childhood. I've healed my emotional wounds with the 90 days of EPRHA I ran last year, but I still don't truly *believe* in myself. For instance, it's automatic instinct to avert someone's eye gaze that I want to like me, or to hunch my shoulders, droop, look at the ground and such when engaging in socializing. I'm a funny, smart, talented individual and I think that most people generally like me, but I have trouble shaking lots of weird things about me that I think stem from a deep-rooted disbelief in myself and my ability to be liked/to be successful.

I'd like to run ASC for at least 96 days, and preferably for 196 days, before changing this to Instantly Attract Beautiful Women for the same amount of time. I'd like to create an exceptional base for myself before I even think about running any of the Alpha Male programs that are available to me.

I also want to hold off on running AM until I can afford the 5G version. I don't have time to get a job right now whatwith my busy semester, but as soon as I do have enough money to buy AM6, I'd like to do so. I don't want to run AM5 and I can't really get a job until this summer/fall, so in the meantime, I figure I'll create myself an incredible foundation before putting my awesomeness over the top with AM6.

Hope you all like following my new journey with ASC.

Day 1

Been listening only for about an hour, now. I remember last time it took about 1-2 full weeks of listening for me to really start feeling the effects of this sub on a regular basis. People started asking me if I had grown, since I seemed physically taller than them. For now, I'll just keep on running the sub and keep trying to stay optimistic and patient about my success.

I do love the way that the sub makes you feel in the beginning, though. After a few days/weeks of constant listening, I tend to lose that euphoric sense that the sub first gives me when you're just starting the program, but especially with 5G, it's such a great way to get energized/focused/inspired to do stuff in the early phases of a new subliminal program.

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03-05-2015, 08:39 PM
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I always love to follow the "free" subs journal. Hope you the best! :-)

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04-04-2015, 02:18 PM
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Sorry (again) that I never ended up posting. I've realized over the past few days that even though I ran 80 days of EPRHA in the beginning of this journal, I've basically completely regressed over the past several months and I think I need to start over again.

I've been diddling around with different subs, always switching, never satisfied to push through and enjoy better results, and I've really ***** myself up without the dedication that I used to have towards the healing process.

I've been horribly depressed and violently angry these past few weeks. My grades are slipping--I'm stuck in my sixth year of university and I don't think I'll be graduating any time soon... I think I'm going to fail every one of my classes again. I can't handle any amount of stress or pressure without completely buckling under it, I've been angry and lashing out at those closest to me, and I've been locking myself up in my room, too down on myself to go out and make improvements in my life.

So I've decided to try running EPRHA again, from the beginning, this time definitely for a full six months.

Day 1

I've only been listening now for about 10 minutes, but I'm just coming off a little bit of an episode where I started yelling and cursing and fuming at my extended family, all of whom I love very much and am ALWAYS very, very close with. I feel myself calming down, starting to relax, and feel a lot less upset about my predicament in life and my current social situation.

Hoping more good things continue to come with the usage of this sub.

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04-06-2015, 03:15 PM
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Day 3

Had a tough day today. Woke up to an email from one of my professors saying that I'm failing and he wants me to drop the course. I'm really struggling financially right now, and I'm really buckling underneath the pressure of taking a full load of rigorous academic courses at one of the world's most prestigious universities while paying all of this semester's loans myself.

I think that of two of my four courses, I'm in reasonably good standing, but in my other two courses, I'm basically failing, which is not okay. This professor that emailed me this morning teaches one of the two courses I'm doing poorly in.

The other course that I'm doing poorly in, I just received my midterm exam grade back today in class, and I got a 40/100 (an F), which is also not good. Right now, unless I seriously get a great grade on the final, I'll fail two of my four courses, which means that I'll have to take another full semester in the fall, which would mark the start of my *SEVENTH* year of university.

I thought that I'd feel helpless and stuck, like I'm doomed to repeat an endless cycle of frustrating and stressful classes that I just fail and fail again, but I actually sort of feel the opposite, which I think is a lot to do with this sub.

I feel calm. I got into a little bit of an argument with my mom, because she was really upset when I told her my bad news, but even then, I didn't blow up at her, I didn't get angry at her.

I really feel like everything's going to be okay. Like I can actually handle the stress of these next 5 weeks to finish my semester on a strong note and maybe even pass all 4 of my courses. I realize that it's going to get way, way tougher at times, but that's okay. Most students at top universities at some point or another feel this kind of pressure, and right now, it's my turn. Normally, I turn and run from too much stress. I just curl up in a ball in my bedroom and sleep away the rest of my problems. I get depressed, or suicidal, or I avoid my problems altogether, but this time, I don't think I'm going to do any of those things, because right now, I don't feel like I want to. I legitimately feel ready to take on the stress and pass all four of my courses this semester. I don't want to have to take another semester of taking stupid pointless classes that just fulfill my General Education requirements. I wrote my thesis almost two years ago now, and finished it at the top of my class--it's my own damned fault that I'm still stuck in school, but right now, I finally feel like even though things are getting really tough right now, I'll somehow be able to turn things around before it's too late and finish right here and right now.

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04-07-2015, 09:04 AM
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I stayed positive and it helped (in a roundabout sort of way). I emailed my professor explaining my financial and emotional situation and he was more sympathetic. He says that if I attend every remaining class and make up the missed homeworks he'd give me a passing grade. He even told me he'd give me an extension into the summer to give me the extra time I need to do well on each assignment.

I didn't give up, curl up in a ball, or boil over with the stress, but I stayed, cool, calm, and collected, and now, at least in this class, things are looking a bit more positive.

I'll update later tonight with my full Day 4 report.

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04-07-2015, 06:29 PM
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Day 4

I had an okay day today. Nothing really bad or good happened. I went to classes and watched some sports games when I got back. I'm trying to do the P90x program, and I did my first day yesterday (Monday), but today, when I was supposed to do the plyometrics program, I chickened out and didn't do it. I kind of feel bad about it, but the truth is that I'm so horribly out of shape, the last time I did this program, and I was in way better shape than I am now, I couldn't continue past the first 10 minutes of the plyometrics program. I didn't get home tonight until 9PM and I have an early morning and late night of classes tomorrow, so I felt like it was better for me to save my strength and just skip ahead to tomorrow's workout, which I believe is arms and shoulders. I can drop a few pounds doing strength work before I try taking on the really intense cardio and athletic-training stuff.

I feel reasonably good emotionally and mentally. Nothing really to report about, other than me feeling I guess slightly more optimistic than yesterday due to that email from my professor I reported about earlier.

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04-09-2015, 08:07 AM
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Day 5

When I first started this I felt a supreme surge of positive thinking, commitment, dedication, and motivation.

But as the week goes on, all of these things are starting to dissipate for me. I feel like my old self again--tired, unmotivated, slightly depressed, lazy--I keep on making plans to workout and then pushing it off until it's too late and I have to go to sleep.

Today's a big day for me, because I have no classes to go to, so if I don't have a good day and get lots of homework done and (hopefully) also work out, I think I'll lose my new self to my old self again, and fully slip back into my lazy, unmotivated, negative-thinking ways.

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04-09-2015, 03:54 PM
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RE: Alteration -- Kalmah0804's Emotional Healing & Others Journal
hey kalmah, I feel you what you're saying in the workout department. Something that helps keep me feeling like I didn't waste an entire day is to do some pushups or crunches throughout the day. It was inspired by this post on reddit my brother in law sent me.

read the first comment on this thread https://www.reddit.com/comments/1q96b5/

I have this pull up bar at my office and I make it a point to do some kind of pushups or pull ups throughout the day, even though it's not a traditional workout. It leaves me feeling like I at least accomplished something physically.

Hope this helps my friend

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RE: Alteration -- Kalmah0804's Emotional Healing & Others Journal
(04-09-2015 03:54 PM)eternitys_child Wrote:  hey kalmah, I feel you what you're saying in the workout department. Something that helps keep me feeling like I didn't waste an entire day is to do some pushups or crunches throughout the day. It was inspired by this post on reddit my brother in law sent me.

read the first comment on this thread https://www.reddit.com/comments/1q96b5/

I have this pull up bar at my office and I make it a point to do some kind of pushups or pull ups throughout the day, even though it's not a traditional workout. It leaves me feeling like I at least accomplished something physically.

Hope this helps my friend

Thanks, I could at least do something to stay active, now I'll try at the minimum doing this.

Day 6

I woke up this morning feeling really sick with a bad migraine headache that didn't really dissipate until about 4 or 5 in the evening. Then I had an overly big dinner and I'm still too full to workout, even though it's already 5 past 8 PM. Maybe I'll do some pushups, crunches and pullups right before I go to bed, but today looks like it's going to be another wasted day.

Couldn't really get any homework done, and couldn't workout. I think part of it is because of the bad migraine I got, but I know that in the long run, that's just another excuse. I could have lay down for a bit and tried waking up later and getting some stuff done, but instead I hung out and played videogames until I felt better, which didn't really leave me with any time during the day to do homework or anything else really productive.

I still have tomorrow, saturday, and sunday in the weekend to try and makeup for lost time here on Thursday, but still, somewhat bummed at myself that I wasted yet another whole day playing videogames, watching hockey, and chilling out.

I guess that the good thing is that instead of feeling like it's okay for me to take off an entire day like I almost always do, I genuinely felt shitty about it. I guess that's at least some small sign of some immediate emotional growth from this sub.

Hoping that feeling intensifies tomorrow so I'll actually be motivated to get off of my lazy ass and do something good for myself for once in my life.

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