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Alpha Female experience
09-02-2017, 06:32 PM (This post was last modified: 09-02-2017 07:20 PM by alphascension.)
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Alpha Female experience
After a trusted and respected friend of mine suggested I run AF following his success with the AM subliminal, I put my quest for bigger boobs on hold ? and have embarked upon AF. My ultimate aim is to become my best version of myself.

Day 1 - started listening at work using the silent version via earbuds. Within half an hour, the usual headache and nausea set in, despite it being at the lowest possible volume. I get these with all subs so not surprised.
Spent the day in a state of euphoria. I'm a happy person normally but this was like being high. Delicious!
Day 2 - I had broken sleep with three dreams about a 13yo boy being bullied. Different boys in each dream, black eyes, being chased, etc. I felt helpless and could only hug the boy. I woke after each dream but was in no way upset. Just hyper-energetic. My foot was tapping like crazy all night, mind was racing with bulletproof thinking, and the elation from the day before continued. Headaches remain.
Day 3 - I slept for 10 hours last night, waking only once. I had a vivid dream of being on an island where men I've been infatuated with over the years were brought to me. Most are celebrities as I'm usually level headed with men. Each one had his flaws highlighted and it was apparent to me why a relationship with them would never have worked. Last up was R, and I laughed hard. If ever there was my dream man and soul mate in one delectable form, he is it. Anyway, in the dream, he took my hand and led me to a vortex. As he stepped through, I woke.
Day 4 - meh.
Day 6 - in the last 36 hours, men have been more overtly attentive. I walked past one in the morning and he smiled and called me 'gorgeous'. Another said I was ideal wife material, yet another used the term beautiful soul, and the men I work with are all flirty. Odd. Nice, but odd.
Slept for 11 hours...broken, poor sleep. Each time I awoke I was still half dreaming and was seeing multiple images flash in my vision rapidly...a bit like having ten pictures flickering on a screen yet each one is clearly perceptible. I'm having visual memories a lot, of random things, like my entire school class from age 12... I haven't thought of nor seen any of them since that age, yet I had a visual roll call of each one. Clearly...faces and names. Shame it's not upcoming lottery numbers lol.
I would normally be wanting to text R but today I just want to be a hermit. Very unmotivated to interact with the world. Except online forums, clearly ?
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09-04-2017, 01:23 AM
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RE: Alpha Female experience
Day 7 - I seem to be on a cycle of elation and motivation one day, slothful recovery the next. Today was a high day. Super energetic, absolutely more productive at work and wasn't watching the clock for a change. The women I've been having difficulty with have all backed off and actually paid me compliments today, which was a pleasant surprise. The male attention continues...to the point where a stranger airdropped porn to me when I was walking at lunchtime. Bizarre!! A male colleague actually remarked that other men seem to be more attentive than usual so it's not my imagination. My own level of sexual desire is heightened and my orgasms are increasing in velocity, noticeably...not that lack of desire has ever been a problem lol. The most notable thing for me though is my confidence in expressing myself. For example, things I would usually want to say/text but either choose to censor or moderate I now just think 'stuff it, I'm just going to say what I want'. And I'm really not afraid of the consequences (not that I'm being rude or confrontational...I am just realising that I used to be very guarded and plan messages based upon a theoretical response, whereas now I find myself being true to what I'm really thinking).

Today was awesome Smile
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09-05-2017, 07:29 AM
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RE: Alpha Female experience
Day 8 - work based productivity remains high and I'm actually happy there for the first time in months. I realised today too that I am making more of an effort physically: I wore mascara to work when I rarely ever wear makeup, and am mentally thinking about my outfit more. I'm also more motivated to exercise.
I was told I'm being needy today which really annoyed me. On reflection, I can see how my being more authentic and impulsive could be interpreted as needing attention. Funny though, because internally I feel more secure and confident now than I have in twenty years. I'm positive the AF scripting shares elements with DMSI because of the external male response but also the shift in my self talk, which I notice at quiet moments like on the bus. I'm actually thinking thoughts of feeling invincible and of having a magnetic personality. The highs and lows are calming - today was another upbeat day but not crazy euphoria high (way better than having a hermit inducing low day).
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09-09-2017, 03:09 PM
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The past 5 days have been smooth sailing. My sleep has normalised and I'm actually getting deep sleep which is undisturbed for the first time in months. I wake feeling groggy so hopefully that's a sign my subconscious mind is getting a workout. I have woken today clearly remembering a happy dream- first dream recollection in a week. I'm hoping this one manifests!!
I caught up with a friend yesterday whom I hadn't seen in a while and she commented that I seem more confident and clear about life, which does actually reflect how I'm feeling. I have a renewed sense of ambition and work remains highly productive. The shifts are subtle but sure.
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09-11-2017, 02:56 AM
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Crazy horny.

That is all. Lol.
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09-16-2017, 05:55 PM
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What a great week! Sex drive is on overdrive and the Os are intense. Work continues to get better and better with a marked shift in people's attitudes towards me - the women are friendlier and more respectful whilst the men are all more flirtatious and fun. The only problem area is sleep - either I only get 2-3 hours in total or I'm rip van sleepyhead and do 9-10. Vivid dreams ++ but they're not distressing nor memorable. I'm fatigued by 3pm each day but mentally elated probably 90% of the time. Exercise motivation remains strong. I'm loving Stage 1, excited for Stage 2!
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09-18-2017, 02:18 AM
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RE: Alpha Female experience
Did what was previously unthinkable for pre-AF me: was completely honest with my best friend about how I feel about him (spoiler alert: it's not platonic). Ordinarily I'd have kept my little love nugget to myself but I had no fear or hesitation in telling him. I would normally have kept quiet out of fear of losing the friendship or just looking like a goose, but not now. I'm really glad that I'm finding my voice. In the past I've always been exceptionally backward at speaking about any emotion. I can yap about banal crud happily but to tell even my partner that I was upset or hurt was impossible. Literally...when I left him he was shocked because in 7 years I had never indicated how unhappy I was nor admitted that I had only sisterly love for him. So yay me for telling my dream man I love him.
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09-19-2017, 02:08 AM
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RE: Alpha Female experience
May have made a slight tactical error in declaring my love for one man here after telling another one that I was doing AF. Turns out he has google skills lol. Oh well... :/
I'm so mellow and happy in my own skin that I really am unbothered by my mini soap opera afternoon. I have every faith that the right alpha man will come soon enough. In the meantime I shall be content with rendering myself visually impairedBig Grin
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